Hi padme911, i'm really sorry to hear this.
I don't have much advice to give you, all i can do is try to encourage you. These times really push you to prioritize and focus on what & who matters. I hope you can pull through, and always remember there is always sunshine after the rain.
Please update us when you can.
*Big hugs*
I'm so sorry you're having a hard time and I completely understand. You think you're going along nicely and manifesting some magic then BAM shit hits the fan.
I don't know if I can help much but I read in a book years ago times like this can be a 'divinity test' like testing your resolve and how much faith you have.
It's like someone leading you down a dark dangerous road and they're saying 'if you trust me and surrender I promise it's beautiful at the end!'
But you're like erm.. how? This looks hopeless?
But you have to surrender and keep going, like a trust fall from the universe.
It's also helpful to keep affirming
'Whatever is happening right now, is a pathway to what I desire, to something amazing, even if it seems completely the opposite..'
Sometimes the universe works in opposites and not everything is as it 'seems'
Sending you lots of love and good vibes.
X
On 10/10, I lost my contract job. I was just starting to pay all my bills and some unfortunate circumstances caused me to use all my savings. I have applied for some jobs but it is moving too slowly. If I don't have some interviews or interest by Friday, I will have to sell my car. I really had pictured my contract job becoming permanent and it was supposed to last until the end of the year. I need some help because I really can't get by without my car. I am trying to sell some stuff.