Woke up this morning smiling and feeling like my love was spooning me like he always does when we wake up together. Stretched and said "good morning!" aloud. Made the special scrambled eggs he likes for breakfast and I enjoyed them very much. Wrote gratitude list this morning that included "D loves me and is with me". Had a super-productive day working and will be meeting a friend for a drink tonight. She will be so pleased to see how well I look and how loved I feel. 

I also had a great online conversation with my ex-husband A today and I'm so happy that he and I are getting to such a friendly supportive place with each other, as we still care about each other even though our marriage wasn't meant to be.

Because I had such a productive day today, I will have plenty of time to meditate to keep my energy high and pretty myself up before I go out. Thanks for the beautiful day, universe.

EDIT: WHOA. So not long after I posted this, he commented on a group photo from his Halloween party in 2015 which I'm tagged in (it was our first date) and said "So good." Aww, he's thinking of our memories fondly.

Small update: Started using that kundalini meditation in the links section (thanks for the suggestion, ladies!) during my visualization sessions last night. WHOA, was it more vivid and emotional than I've been able to pull off before! Quite unexpected, but lovely. Both me and him were teary and emotional in the visualization because the things he was saying made me feel so happy. 

I somehow managed to doze off a little toward the end (coming down from too much coffee this morning, I suspect), but I woke up right as the YouTube clip ended. Immediately after, I got a notification from Amazon that a birthday gift I'd ordered for his roommate had been delivered to his house. In my gut, it felt like another little synchonicity, the universe literally saying "delivered".

Thanks for sharing! Yup so far I don't feel like it's a chore but sometimes instead of Lanie's MP3 I would use her method while listening to the kundalini meditation ..it feels good.  Sometimes I would do short ones while on the train ..it always makes me feel good . But sometimes I fall asleep while on the MP3 lol.  With me guy friends are becoming more complimentary and even nicer than usual I guess it's the higher vibration overall and I seem to be getting lots more admiring glances everywhere. I'll continue doing it for my SP but I guess I'm at the stage where it's him or better...

Oh what you said is interesting on him 'fighting' it...thTs why I mostly do pw now instead of bwd..sometimes I feel he resists the bwd and there was once he looked so tired and weird the day after I did an intense bwd session lol

I love all the signs you're getting dear! Thanks for sharing your experience! So how was your date with the model? How many times pw do you do in a day?

I've been doing PW/BWD on him and although he can be stubborn, I KNOW it's reaching him. 
I sneaked a peek at his Facebook today, and last night (after I did another visualization), he posted a song with lyrics that were clearly targeted toward me, about "needing to walk away", not trusting, and generally angry and resistant.

For one split second, it upset me, but then I smiled and knew that this was because I'm getting to him and he's throwing up active resistance because he FEELS it. Posting something that reactionary in public is really unlike him, so he must be in a tailspin, the poor thing. He's not the kind to whine for TOO long and he'll get past it, especially as I keep working on sending him love, forgiveness, trust, and warm fuzzies. I got this in the bag and I see this as progress that he's on his way back.  

Mind you, this is after a series of funny synchronicities today that led me to check out his FB in the first place: 

I woke up feeling "meh", so I did some stuff to raise my vibration and feel actively happy. I wanted a snack, but didn't feel like getting up to cook something and my eye fell on the bag of my stuff he returned the other night. Inside were some of the protein bars I used to keep at his house! Coconut ones, my favorite! I just smiled and said "Thanks for bringing me the snack, honey! Love you too!"

As I was eating it, I looked down at the time and it was 12:34, a number that pops up constantly for me in regards to him over the course of our relationship. And then as I scrolled through FB, I saw an ad for a pair of leggings 100% identical to the ones I wore on our first date.

Ha.

Time to focus on re-writing his emotional state.

Thank you, beauty! I will keep on keeping on. This feels too good not to. I feel like I just had 8 cups of coffee. I love you guys for your support and care. If it's alright, I'll continue to post progress on this thread as it goes. Sharing successes feels good and supportive to my goals.

Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaand two weird synchronicities within 10 minutes of each other right after posting this:

I work from home. I was on the phone with my mom telling her about this "date" on Tuesday and sitting by my window. I look down and there's a cat I've never seen around here before that looks exactly like the dude's cat (he showed me a pic last night) sitting there staring up at me. I laugh.

I get back to work. I pull up a customer's information and there it is, in black and white. My beloved's first name, which is not the most common name and it was the less common spelling of it, which is the one he uses.

Ha ha, universe. Ha ha. I guess I AM on the right track.   

Edit: Right after I posted this, an email in my inbox with the subject "Your zen is coming."