Hey Jag,
I'm so glad to read that you're in a better place. Doesn't it feel good? :-)

Lanie Stevens wrote:

Jag123 wrote:

Hi all

So I am on week 2 and what should be the second  round of the love spell tonight. 

I wrote on another thread last week that after the first casting on the first week,  I felt just awful.  I put it down to unsurfacing old unresolved issues, and felt better.   After this most recent cast (on Sunday)  I felt so so bad all day yesterday.  Weak, listless, sad, emotional (and it's not my time of the month lol).  Just completely overwhelmed with sadness and no hope. Then I'd swing to feeling nothing at all and that was even more frightening - a bit like I was losing my  mind.

  Thinking about him made me actually feel exhausted and overwhelmed (or the nothing feeling) yet he would still keep surfacing in my mind. I was fine before the spell and almost a bit worried about tonight BUT on the other hand I don't want to waste any good work.  I can't bring myself to do PW or BWD which I normally enjoy.  As you may have gathered, I haven't heard a peep from him, which normally I'm absolutely fine with.  Now though I woke up sad again, which again is so unlike me.  Not sad because I haven't heard from him but more that it feels so much like a void now.

I have had a  few  synchronistic events over the weekend -

 - meeting the "other woman" for the first time in 2 years and getting some closure there (it's amazing what your mind can make up!)
 - Him blocking my best friend on IG which I believe was his last open channel to me.
 - Having a horrific nightmare on Sunday night related to past issues (not him) - I'm guessing my energy is clearing. 
 - Meeting a psychic friend and her saying "what have you done to him, he cannot stop thinking about you it's driving him mad and it's like something has triggered and he doesn't know why but he's very upset by it"

Clearly it's the spell.  It's just this feeling... I actually feel like I have M.E or something! 

This is the last time, I will tell the story of what I don't want, as I know it's counterproductive to the process, but just wonder if there is anyone else feeling like this - at this stage of the spell casting.  I really want to go on, but am so worried about this getting worse. On the flip side I'm doubly worried that I'll lose momentum.

Any input would be appreciated.

Thanks

J x

I believe that you are just further connecting to him and you may be taking on what he is feeling at the moment.  I don't think the emotions are necessarily yours but they are most likely his.  

The spell (and techniques) will connect you on a deep level, and just like healers can feel the disease and pain in others, you may be feeling his innermost feelings.  I would definitely disconnect from him afterwards by either using my meditation or setting the intent as you visualize removing the cords that are connecting the two of you.

I tell readers that the methods are very powerful but, until women use them and experience the emotions and connection, it is difficult to explain just how powerful it is to be connected at a soul level.  If your energy feels drained you are either 1)  picking up his energy; 2) using your own instead of universal energy; or 3) not disconnecting from him so you are using your energy to "power" both of you!

Your psychic friend told you the truth when she picked up that he cannot get you off of his mind!  :-)
 

Hi Lanie, 

Thanks for the clarification on this.  Intuitively, I had thought it could be his energy coupled with my own movement in energy that was causing this listless overwhelming feeling.  Last week it wasn't as strong as this so thought it was just my own dormant feelings rising to the surface.    You aren't wrong about this being powerful, my third eye has been throbbing like crazy for the past two days as well.

I'll take both yours and the lovely Emmiline's advice and continue on this evening ensuring I do your CTC meditation  straight afterwards.  

Thank you for all your wonderful work Lanie and for this great forum.

I shall keep my "sisters" posted.

J x

 

You're welcome.  This stuff can be overwhelming at times.

I think it would do you some good to do something fun.  An activity, movie or book that is completely unrelated to him or LOA. At times, we just need to exchange a few laughs with friends to give us a boost.

emmiline wrote:

Hi love, What did you have in mind when you decided to cast the spell? if that is still your goal i think you should complete it, you're halfway through as it is. Did you try cutting the cord to alleviate your anxiety/sadness?

Hi Emmiline

Thank you so much for responding.  My focus was always loving, and and I could generate those feelings during the meditation too.  It was just after....  I didn't do the cut the cord meditation because I couldn't bring myself to do any of it at all yesterday.  It does help though, I'll do it on the ride to work this morning.

Thanks for the advice to carry on.  I will complete it.  Did you experience a similar thing?

J x

Hi all

So I am on week 2 and what should be the second  round of the love spell tonight. 

I wrote on another thread last week that after the first casting on the first week,  I felt just awful.  I put it down to unsurfacing old unresolved issues, and felt better.   After this most recent cast (on Sunday)  I felt so so bad all day yesterday.  Weak, listless, sad, emotional (and it's not my time of the month lol).  Just completely overwhelmed with sadness and no hope. Then I'd swing to feeling nothing at all and that was even more frightening - a bit like I was losing my  mind.

  Thinking about him made me actually feel exhausted and overwhelmed (or the nothing feeling) yet he would still keep surfacing in my mind. I was fine before the spell and almost a bit worried about tonight BUT on the other hand I don't want to waste any good work.  I can't bring myself to do PW or BWD which I normally enjoy.  As you may have gathered, I haven't heard a peep from him, which normally I'm absolutely fine with.  Now though I woke up sad again, which again is so unlike me.  Not sad because I haven't heard from him but more that it feels so much like a void now.

I have had a  few  synchronistic events over the weekend -

 - meeting the "other woman" for the first time in 2 years and getting some closure there (it's amazing what your mind can make up!)
 - Him blocking my best friend on IG which I believe was his last open channel to me.
 - Having a horrific nightmare on Sunday night related to past issues (not him) - I'm guessing my energy is clearing. 
 - Meeting a psychic friend and her saying "what have you done to him, he cannot stop thinking about you it's driving him mad and it's like something has triggered and he doesn't know why but he's very upset by it"

Clearly it's the spell.  It's just this feeling... I actually feel like I have M.E or something! 

This is the last time, I will tell the story of what I don't want, as I know it's counterproductive to the process, but just wonder if there is anyone else feeling like this - at this stage of the spell casting.  I really want to go on, but am so worried about this getting worse. On the flip side I'm doubly worried that I'll lose momentum.

Any input would be appreciated.

Thanks

J x