I've been working on my poi for quite some time... I've had dreams of him from asking me to start a friendship... To us kissing and when it came time for us to get down and dirty ..my dumb ass said I don't think I'm ready for this yet in the dream....I don't know what's going on in his life..and I saw before that he was with someone but I don't give a damn About that... then it's like sometimes it's Interference when I talk to him so I put a bubble around us to talk... I've calmed down a lot... I've been having this weird feeling in my heart area for the past couple days..Last time we PW...all I heard was he was sad...then I had a dream or vision of a funeral..maybe it's in my head...but the strange sensation in the heart area is where I feel it....I feel like something is not right...I can't put my finger on it and I don't have enough strength as of yet to get deep inside of him to get the answers that I need...all this is making me feel a bit weak at times..I can't put my finger on what's going on.