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My two cents.. I think you will have more success if you handle this with a more empowered and positive mind frame. Instead of "I hope," think "I know" and "I have." Do pw to connect with him and carry on working on wonderful you. If you were in a beautiful committed relationship with him, would you be afraid? Ignore the little details and walk in faith.

rosetinted wrote:

Well he's bloody disappeared again. No responses to texts.

I saw him out and he was in a weird mood and just ran off so I gave him a ring, checked he was ok. Said he just didn't like the vibe in there.

Within the SAME convo he asked for a massage on his injury (I'm trained too) told me to go see this other band playing as 'they're really good looking, you'll be fine..' (wtf) and I gently tried to invite myself to a party he was going and he was like NAH...


So weird and up and down and not like him I dunno wtf is going on in his head one minute I'm his best friend he's cuddling all night the next I feel like crap...

I heard from a friend they saw him 'super drunk' this week.

I haven't contacted him since last weekend. The full moon was a crazy one anyway. I just feel kind of hurt and confused and embarrassed and worried...

Wondering how I can see this as a good thing. Seems so up and down.

I know I will end up with him. Just need to stop feeling pissed at him as I love that idiot. Things were going so well!

Been still doing PW at least once a day and just distracting myself. Would love some words of encouragement and support and that I've not ruined it or to give up on him.. I couldn't.

Love you all
Xx

I would look at things a little differently. There might not be enough energy built up yet so he's confused and trying to get himself figured out. Everything points to him caring but he might not be confident in himself or confused about how he's feeling. I wouldn't contact him, and keep reaching out to him energetically instead.  He'll come around but you need to be able to maintain a positive vibe.

It's like when people get blocked on social media for no good reason. The other person is trying to deal with their feelings. These are all good indications that you are on the right track. Be patient and don't try to rush things. He's coming.

jellyb wrote:

Oh honey, it's definitely not that you could be just anyone, or that he was drunk. Nobody does all that for just anyone. And he was probably not drunk for the entire night!

These are all great things, you have absolutely no reason to worry, keep it up! It's working! Try to relax and let it happen!  (easier said than done I know)

Thank you! You're right xxx

Just a little update!

I've been poorly with a cough and cold but my friend asked me to play a gig as someone had dropped out so I said sure. I was feeling so odd and neutral and kind of annoyed at my guy for not being in touch. I sat outside before my gig and looked at the moon and imagined loads of angels flying around it, I said please angels send me a miracle, send me a sign to not give up on him, if he's the one for me just let me know.

I looked to my left and saw HIM and our mutual friend were walking upto me, coming to see me play. So weird. We had a lovely funny night laughing and drinking and they ended up invading my set and we just had a big jam together.

He walked me home, ended up coming in again for a nightcap but I was still feeling fluey! He slept in my bed, held me for much of the night was so cute gave me a neck rub and back rub to help my cough. He held my hand for a while as we slept but I'm trying not to think he was just drunk.. and maybe I could have been anybody... nothing else romantic happened.. but I'm so grateful for that which did...

I feel awful though as I was coughing all night and so restless! Kept waking him up too! So hope he doesn't hold that against me.

I have no idea what he's feeling for me... he did say 'I think we're grown up enough to share the same bed together..' lol but maybe he gives out massages all the time !

I'm dreaming and hoping his feelings are growing again, that he just can't stay away.

I actually said to my friend that day I feel so crappy I just want him to hold me for a little while..

Scared but intrigued by what will happen next.. here's hoping he doesn't freak outtttt or I don't ha.

Lots of love ladies and thank you for your magic support. And thank you lanie 💜💖

Jag123 wrote:

Hello love, 

I feel your pain, it seems so cruel doesn't it.  You haven't ruined it in the slightest, you just lost your centred space for a bit.  You'll get back there again, and quicker you do the quicker he will re-appear.

You are worthy of the very best.

Hugs xxx

Thank you my love, I believe you.  xxxx

Oasiscalm wrote:

rosetinted wrote:

Oasiscalm wrote:

Stop chasing him. Don't contact him.
If now is not the time for him let be until the time he is ready. In the same way he found you to declare his love, he will find you when he is ready to commit to you.

Get back to you. Remove the desperation and attachment and walk in faith. Work on your inner self believe and your worthiness.

That made me cry. Not in a bad way, thank you. ❤️

I really got my hopes up this was it. It's ok though. I'm just hurt. And a little embarrassed.

X

I know what it's like to get your hopes up that "this is it, now is the time" but what I have learnt is that those moments never came when I was focused on them.

So for example the time when I'm talking to my guy and Im thinking right now he's going to say xyz. And in those moments it doesn't happen. It happens one evening when I've had a blah day, I've taken off my make up, my hair is a mess about to get into bed and he calls to say he is outside and wants to chat.

So don't worry it will unfold but you just need to not be so focused on each moment being the moment it going to happen.

You have no idea how helpful that was to me right now. I've come so far I don't want to have to give up on him. Just hope I haven't ruined it with the texts again. Just wanted to know if he was deliberately not replying for whatever reason. So now I know that.

I'm going to try to spend today on me.

Thank you

Xx