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[quote=Nivi]Dear Believe, wow!! Your post made me cry. Thank you so much. I felt so much love and support from your side. 1) I am raised with - only Gods will matter and there are no prayers that can change Gods will. There was some things/wishes I had and prayed so much and still I didnt have that. Maybe he is not in Gods plan for me. I am praying for a year now, these days is one year since we broke up and one year of no contact. If he is Gods will, he would be here, right? God knows how many times I cried, I talked to Him about that... He knows very well how much I changed and how much I want him...  I know I deserve another chance, but where is he? I wont give up on praying, I just feel like I need to still pray. But, until when?  2) Thank you for your recommenation. Actually I read that book, and many others, I tried with Elizabeth Daniels: Manifesting love but with no success. I will read Magic again, but this time more carrefully. 3) Sometimes I forgot to be thankful. Thank you for reminding me. And thank you for some ideas, I will sure use it :) 4) Hm... Veronica and Elizabeth have very similar approach, but I didnt have a success with Elizabeth´s techniques. And when I was reading Veronica´s forum, I noticed that many of them there failed in attracting exes back... so I stop reading that forum. Oh, and I also tried Superman games( get your ex back and connect with reality where your ex loves you) and still no result. 5) Thanks for your advice. :) Well, what is bothering me is that I am feeling really good, I have so much to do, my job is going great, I care about myself more, and I dont feel negative. Actually, I caught myself few times smiling with no reason. And when I think about him... I feel good.. but where is he?  [color=#222222]I know I want him, but I feel like I am reconciled with a possibility that we will never be together again. And sometimes I feel like that possibilty is actually true and I am in peace with that. What does it mean? I was thinking about that and I realized that I am actually afraid that I will be dissapointed again if I will put some major effort with loa technique... that I will only deceive myself... you know... where is the line? will I go crazy? I can carry our picture with me for the next 5 years, dreaming about him, praying for us, using PW and other stuff and still for nothing. I dont want to believe and be convinced that everything will be fine and we will be together and then would realize that I spent few years for nothing, and that this reality will slap my face so hard that I would not know where I am and what is really going on.... And what about him? He needs to have some feeling for me and wanting me again, right? What if he doesnt have any feeling for me and doesnt want to be with me again? I can dream, pray, believe... and nothing will happen. And this one year of nothing...  everyone would just forget that person, time erases everything... So, it turns out that he really didnt love me, and wasnt in love with me, like he said to me...  I am not sure what to think or do anymore... [/color] I will try to read Magic one more time and give myself a little time to try again imagining him being with me, I will continue with my prayers...   We will see what will be...  [/quote]