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[quote=wanderlusting]So, I am posting an update on my situation. I haven't been active on here in quite some time since last month but I wanted to let you all know that I was able to manifest him back to me and into my life. He started calling me, texting me every day, and then started showing up at my house when I wouldn't respond to him. Of course, I was doing the NC rule at the time because I needed to heal and let me emotions settle so I wouldn't push him away again. We hung out probably about 5x over the course of the past month. One of those nights, was exactly like I had written in my journal through the visualization process and it was so beautiful. We talked many times while hanging out and he told me that he still loves me, wants a future with me, is exclusive to me only, told me how happy I made him, and that he wanted to continue talking and seeing each other. He told me that he wanted us to work on ourselves individually while working towards being in a relationship again. All of the things I imagined hearing from him, I finally got exactly that. Unfortunately, I have been going through a lot of things in my own personal world and while we were talking 3 weeks ago, I ended up getting offended by something he said and told him that I needed to take a breather and take a step back because I didn't want to let my emotions take control of the situation. Later that night he messaged me and told me he was going to let me go and that he wished me well, creating more of a bigger problem, which in turn led to an argument. To make a long story short, things haven't been the same since then. He is very hit and miss with messaging me and we haven't seen or hung out with each other since. He stopped complimenting me, stopped telling me he loves me and misses me, and pretty much so has disappeared out of my life. The last time I spoke to him two weeks ago, he told me that he realizes that I haven't changed and he was re-affirmed on making the right decision to end things between us. So now, I feel stuck. I have been practicing yoga, doing meditation, visualizations, writing, positive affirmations, loa kinds of stuff, and still, no changes and no improvement. I kind of feel like he came back into my life to get what he wanted from me and then once he had it, disappear. I do know that for over a month now, he has been partying and going out every week, sometimes multiple times a week, drinking and getting drunk, meeting new girls, and I know for sure back in October, he did hook up with someone else. Not sure if that is happening now but I know the last time he did this to me, this was that other girl he was hooking up with. So it leaves my mind to wonder and I know I shouldn't because it will only make me feel worse and it will only manifest that happening. I am needing advice on what to do because I feel like I am reliving the break up once again after I was doing so well and moving forward with my life. I do still love him and want to be with him but his damn free will is making it difficult because we aren't on the same page anymore. [/quote]