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[quote=wanderlusting]He is currently in therapy to work on some issues that he has. He did invite me to his therapy session a few days ago so I could give the therapist my side of the story, but I ended up backing out because we haven't even seen each other in over a week now. I know that he isn't where he wants to be in life right now and I know that a few months ago he was struggling with depression but he seems happier now and actually enjoying his life. He did me text me Sunday that he misses having fun with me but since Sunday, he hasn't reached out to me to hang out or spend time together. I am not going out of my way to contact him nor to try to see him. I am giving him space and time to try and remove the negative emotions and associations he has currently with me. I wasn't the easiest person to be in a relationship with and I struggled a lot with constant worrying, jealousy, insecurities, and because of those things, it created me being controlling and possessive, which of course, creates more problems and conflicts. I am too in therapy myself to work on those issues as well as self love. It is hard undoing many years of conditioning. I do have to say though, I wish I had gone to his therapy session because I think his therapist hearing what my guy refuses to tell him, will only help in getting the help that he needs. I am still meditating on him but more so on him treating me better and him wanting to talk to me and see me. I feel there are some things we need to sit down and discuss before we make a permanent decision to go opposite directions and give up completely. I know he has mentioned a couple of times here and there that with how I still am, he doesn't want to risk getting back into a relationship with me and getting the same shitty relationship we had before.  [quote=Indigo][quote=wanderlusting]I do have to agree with you some what. He has been getting upset lately a lot more than usual at me because he is starting to see that I am moving forward and on with my life. He also thinks that I am seeing other guys and going on dates and because of this, he has been lashing out a lot more. What I don't understand, is if he doesn't want a relationship with me, then why would it matter if I am opening myself up to dating other guys? He has told me that he doesn't want to lose me and that he doesn't want me dating other guys but because he broke up with me, he cannot stop me from doing what I want to do if that is what I am wanting. In all of 6 years, despite the few times we have broken up, I haven't dated other guys or been with anyone else until this time around. I know he has told me a few times that he has struggled with his decision. He has also told me that if he spends more time with me or if he talks to me all the time, then it is like a relationship and that isn't something that he wants so he disappears for days at a time. But then when we hang out, there are plenty of times that he acts like a boyfriend and is loving and affectionate to me. It can be quite confusing to me but then again, I wonder if it is confusing to him too.  [/quote] It's obvious that he is possessive and maybe even controlling.  He seems to want to keep you dangling and at a distance but doesn't want you to associate with other men (whether you are actually doing so or whether that's  what you've led him to believe or whether he drew that conclusion on his own).  Are you still meditating on him? Do you really even want him anymore?   This is just my opinion but after six years there ought be some sort of commitment by now.  That is a really long time to spend on someone without having something to show for it.  [/quote]  [/quote]