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[quote=January]I  woke up in a better place today and re-read PW today. I felt energized and a renewed sense of belief. I took a few key points away that I wrote down to remind me-  Stop wanting, start believing, stop doubting and to start living.  When a negative thought about him with her or going on this trip popped up, I did as Lanie recommended and visualized him pushing her away and saying he only loves January. When a thought of just him popped into my mind, I did as she recommended and said "YOU ARE MINE and ONLY MINE" while visualizing him. None of these visualizations took more than 20 seconds and it helped. I'll admit that this happened more times than I care to count today but I know in time, it will get less frequent. My job can be boring and slow, so my mind wandered quite a bit but I am proud of how well I did. By the afternoon, the thoughts were coming less frequently and I felt like I detached a bit more. Today I did PW by the book instead of the MP3 or with music. I kept it under 5 minutes like she instructed by setting an alarm. As suggested here, I kept it to a few thoughts. I think that there were 4 or 5, including two that jumped out from the book, I do not love her and being with her makes me miss you even more. I thanked him and really tried to let him feel my gratitude and love for him back. And then my alarm went off and it was done. I felt good, I thanked myself for doing it and believing it and went on about my day.  I am going to work with this more. I had been having these long visualizations that were leaving me feeling really good but too emotionally attached I think. And as some of you had advised, too confusing for him. So unless I use the guided MP3, I am going to keep it very short and sweet like this. I think it helped me keep my focus better as well and it's probably easier to sustain the kind of intense emotion for a shorter period of time.  [/quote]