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[quote=Layla]Hi everyone! New here! Nice to meet you!  I have been doing PW / BWD for 1 week on my love. We have been keeping in touch as friends since our break up last June, but I noticed in the past month he's been more distant to me. I don't think it's about me, but there's a lot going on in his life now (new job, moved to new country, new girl who he'll break up with after my RS :D) ... Anyway I am stopping myself from contacting him so much and giving him the "needy" vibe, and instead doing the RS methods to change his behavior  Yesterday I felt an urge/calling to sign on this online game that we used to play together all the time. I haven't played or signed on in 3 months! I was astounded that he had played the game 10 hours before me for the first time in 4 months (we are in different countries, so time difference). I feel that PW has created a "connection" between us because I can't explain how I felt the random need to check the game after so many months! I felt super grateful for the sign! Unfortunately that evening, one of my beloved pets passed all of a sudden. I was devastated and shocked so I broke my NC and called him while he was at work. I haven't heard his voice since December. To my surprise he instantly picked up, and he listened to me for 5 min before he went back to work.  After that we texted a bit, and I mentioned I had a dream last week that my pet was in danger. His texts were a bit strange! They were referring to LOA concepts although I'm positive he does not know about LOA. He mentioned, if you think negative thoughts, negative things will happen. And dreams represent our subconscious. I thought it was bizarre! I told him about strange dreams I had in the past and he never mentioned these things! It was definitely out of character... I ranted to him more out of sadness.. but he stopped replying. Now I'm just angry because I feel he is doing it on purpose to distance himself from me. But perhaps I am overthinking it.. Sometimes I really struggle to ignore the circumstances and just focus on my desired end result. I would love suggestions how to deal with those bouncy ball emotions (love him-> hate -> don't want anymore -> want)..  Anyway, just wanted to share these results and would appreciate any validation/feedback... :D [/quote]