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[quote=Jag123]Hi all So I am on week 2 and what should be the second  round of the love spell tonight.  I wrote on another thread last week that after the first casting on the first week,  I felt just awful.  I put it down to unsurfacing old unresolved issues, and felt better.   After this most recent cast (on Sunday)  I felt so so bad all day yesterday.  Weak, listless, sad, emotional (and it's not my time of the month lol).  Just completely overwhelmed with sadness and no hope. Then I'd swing to feeling nothing at all and that was even more frightening - a bit like I was losing my  mind.   Thinking about him made me actually feel exhausted and overwhelmed (or the nothing feeling) yet he would still keep surfacing in my mind. I was fine before the spell and almost a bit worried about tonight BUT on the other hand I don't want to waste any good work.  I can't bring myself to do PW or BWD which I normally enjoy.  As you may have gathered, I haven't heard a peep from him, which normally I'm absolutely fine with.  Now though I woke up sad again, which again is so unlike me.  Not sad because I haven't heard from him but more that it feels so much like a void now. I have had a  few  synchronistic events over the weekend -  - meeting the "other woman" for the first time in 2 years and getting some closure there (it's amazing what your mind can make up!)  - Him blocking my best friend on IG which I believe was his last open channel to me.  - Having a horrific nightmare on Sunday night related to past issues (not him) - I'm guessing my energy is clearing.   - Meeting a psychic friend and her saying "what have you done to him, he cannot stop thinking about you it's driving him mad and it's like something has triggered and he doesn't know why but he's very upset by it" Clearly it's the spell.  It's just this feeling... I actually feel like I have M.E or something!  This is the last time, I will tell the story of what I don't want, as I know it's counterproductive to the process, but just wonder if there is anyone else feeling like this - at this stage of the spell casting.  I really want to go on, but am so worried about this getting worse. On the flip side I'm doubly worried that I'll lose momentum. Any input would be appreciated. Thanks J x[/quote]