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[quote=Evey2222][color=#424242]So C had been messaging me all weekend, kept being sexual, but I was really keeping my mind under control and whenever I had a bad thought I would change it to something else. I managed to manifest him coming to see me today before he drove back to the army. He came over, at first I said I didn't want to sleep with him and so we just put on a film and was laughing at it. We did however end up sleeping together, Its my fault though because I can't seem to resist him when he tries (very hard when your in love with someone) but I kept saying its not fair because you'll drop me as soon as you meet someone else and he said that he doesn't want to meet anyone else? [/color] [color=#424242]Thing is I don't feel bad for doing it, I am a grown woman and can make my own choices, after we carried on watching the film. He seemed pretty sad leaving which was odd. Like he was late anyway but seemed very distant. He also said if he could have the mask that we got from Venice, we both had one and he said he wanted his one so I said to him I didn't think you even cared about that and he was like "of course I do". [/color] [color=#424242]I am hoping that after seeing each other it is going to help him realise how much he has missed me and loves spending time with me, he kept saying he had missed 'this', and there is a certain thing I do in bed and I asked if he had done it with anyone else and he said no its only what he does with me? Which I found strange lol. The army has made him so cut off, but I love him unconditionally anyway and still have faith we will be together and happy soon. xx [/color][/quote]