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[quote=Jim Chien Beige]Hello girls. On September 2016 I manifested my ex back. This forum helped me a lot in so many ways. But I have to tell you that I have been struggling for months. I did manifest the man, but not the relationship I wanted because I was only focused on getting him back. I thought: I will solve our problems later. And guess what? Our relationship worsened. During those months I meditated, visualized, etc... I didn’t know what else to do. He has a very bad temper, he yells, throw things, and he even insulted me. It was like a devil was inside him. I was really desperate, sad and anxious all the time. But my trust in the universe never disappear. One day I made the suggestion of going to a couple’s workshop. It lasted a whole weekend. He agreed to go, but he wasn’t very happy about it. That day he began to change... After that, we went to a session of therapy with the same psychologist of the workshop. It was horrible. You know, the typical scene of one blaming the other. That psychologist sent us to an AA group (not exactly AA, but they follow the same 12 step program to treat people with alcoholism, drug addiction, neurosis, codependency, etc...) BTW, my man is a drug addict. He smoked loads of pot every single day, but he denied that he had a problem... he also used all the existing drugs during his life, but he said that he didn’t have a problem. Absolute denial. We had to go to a retreat to accomplish step 4 and 5 of the 12 steps, which are: Made a searching and fearless moral inventory of ourselves. Admitted to God, to ourselves, and to another human being the exact nature of our wrongs. During the retreat, we were separated. We had to write the story of our life, even the most shameful parts. It was really intense, but we had the chance to liberate ourselves from resentment. When we got home, he became another person completely. He is always happy and grateful, he stopped smoking pot, he is more loving and he is learning to show his emotions. We are learning to communicate respectfully also. And I feel like a big stone was lifted from my back. I now know why I react the way I do, I know what are my fears and what events of my life affected me. So ladies, my point is: I asked the universe for the perfect relationship with Juan. I didn’t know how the universe will give me that, and a bunch of alcoholics and drug addicts were the channel. Mysterious ways, right? Don’t ever give up, please.[/quote]