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[quote=Jag123]Unicorn Thank you for such a great reply, which gave me a lot of food for thought these past couple of days.  Re-reading my recent post, I can hear the neediness creeping in ever so slightly again.  As you have said,  the specific nature of focussing on him/us is not right at this time.  It's too soon to be neutral without attachment to be doing any kind of energy work around him.  Before I know it momentum will start to build and I am in the insecure place again. I woke up this morning at 3am with this on my mind (this tends to be my witching hour when I get my conclusions to problems [img]http://cdn.boardhost.com/emoticons/happy.png[/img]),  What I realised was, that the blocks are all within ME (as they are within us all if we aren't getting that thing we want).  I feel the universe has given me a break because I let go, so  I could witness in physical form my  new normal.  It's like I'm being shown that  I am ready to take this or any future relationship to another level - by  grace of this chance encounter.  So the question is "what would this person, who I have now become do in this situation?" Certainly not fret, worry or try to make it happen.   It's quite fun to decide, like playing a part until it feels truly real.  I'm playing the part of how it feels to be beautiful, desirable,  the kind of woman that is admired and chased lol.  This  has started to become my reality - before the encounter-  so I'm ready to take it up a notch! I suppose this is what is meant by ignoring current reality and feeling our way through to a desired outcome.  My desired outcome is actually to feel comfortable with the idea of actually HAVING the kind of relationship I want , not just in fantasy but in real life.  I have some resistance to the truly having (not the wanting), because when I think about it, it's like I can't quite believe it could happen for whatever reason.  My resistance is creating these blocks.  So to cut a long story short, I am taking my mind of it .  I'm focussing on wonderful me again, I'll continue to keep my own energy close and leave it all up to the universe :) The best thing I can take from this is miracles really do happen when you get out of the way.   I'll update you with any manifestations! Thanks again. J x[/quote]