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[quote=Jag123]You are more than welcome darling!  It's amazing how this works and those little winks from the universe keep us forward thinking and on the right path.  Are they related to your own development or indicators of him?  Last night  I had a little wobble and was about to go down the rabbit hole of "hows".  I felt lonely and missed him.  Where I would have gone into a funk, instead  I went through about 7 tapping videos even when I didn't want to.  I started off crying with lots of resistance through a few, and by the end  of the last I was feeling empowered again.The incessant thinking had stopped.   I honestly think these feelings come up to allow us to come face to face with them and make the decision not to make them part of our new reality.  They are reminder we are focusing in the WRONG direction.   It's about learning to trust the process, and whilst intellectually I know, there are occassions (like last night) when I just feel it is impossible - it can come from nowhere!   Last night I wanted to see the changes RIGHT NOW!!! lol!  It's strange at those times, it's difficult to see how far we have come.  Where I am now would have been a miracle 12 months ago.   I remember listening to an Abraham Hicks recording and she  said something like "you all think show me the manifestation and then I'll believe, but the way it works is you need to believe and then you see the manifestation" Easy to remember when you're feeling calm, but not when you're in a funk.     Anyway, back to last night, within 10 minutes of calming myself down and releasing resistance,  I had a text message from a friend who lives in apartment above asking whether I wanted to come over for wine with a few of her friends. That was the lonliness part sorted, a very very quick manifestation once I let go.    I went and had a great time, met some new people and laughed a lot.  Whilst I was there, I had an inspired thought to drop him a text (I've learned to decipher between inspired action and acting out of desperation) so I did, which lead to an hour long telephone conversation with him later that  evening.  Another very quick manifestation! It was a great conversation and I know what we have is real.  We are still treading very carefully with each other.  Neither of us want to be where we were so it's friendly but still intimate.  I also reminded myself that while it is light when we speak to each other, the way I actually feel in private is very different. Who's to say he isn't the same? We'll soon find out.  I believe that all of the above came from letting go, I let go via the tapping vids but I think you can let go anyway you choose as long as your mindset is changed and you get out of the bloody way!  If I had have acted from the place of lonliness I doubt very much I would have gone anywhere last night.  I would have stayed at home alone because that is what I was vibrating.   Additionally , had I have text him from a place of doubt and fear, I do not think a phone call would have happened at all, because I would have been vibrating doubt and fear regardless of what was said in a message.  Me and the boy have arranged to get together after Christmas (I am away for Christmas), which will be a wonderful thing, but I'm not getting excited or overthinking it.  It's the next logical step and I am letting go again.  I have no desire to contact him  today or tell anyone (in my real life lol) about this, like you I'm just waiting to see what comes next :)  I must say, now I have spoken to him it's much easier to go back to trust again.  Much harder when there has been no contact, however, keeping the faith is the most important thing.  I am spending my time and energy getting ready for when he is back in my life.  Who do I want to be, and I need to redecorate lol!  I'm getting on with creating the best me instead of bothering the universe with continually asking when.  Trusting and letting go is EVERYTHING!  Thanks for letting me vent everyone, I find writing this out really helps me keep context on the situation and while the doubts come up - even as I write this - it's much easier to let them float away.  Thank you :) J xx[/quote]