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[quote=annabelle]Thank you....I have been getting more of a feeling and telling him how much he misses me, but its turning into me missing him....like lots more than I used to.  Its been a year since I've seen him and texted regularly.  I spent the winter keeping busy, changing directions in order to forget about him, but then I found this forum. So referencing some LOA stuff, if I am wanting him to miss me, I am kinda wishing that on myself to.....like me missing him. This is starting to backfire for me.   I did start a very tiring job...kinda losing mental control.  Today is the pits...lol...bring back the 70's.  Don't think people use that phrase anymore.:)  But I am suddenly super busy and super tired and all I want to do is lay around and daydream about a better life. I have always had trouble letting go to anger, jealousy, resentment.  I do not express it outwardly, always act cool as a cuke in public.  And now I can't let go of these darn feelings for him.  Arghhhh. So this heart ache, I feel like not only am I creating it, I am creating it from a situation that never really took off anyway.  I mean I can't imagine how embarrassed I would feel if anyone dirt side knew how desperate I've become....yikes.  And over a short term friendship that I wanted to last forever....hmmmm. Confession is good.  This feels good.  That's a start.   Thanks again.[/quote]