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[quote=Cahira]So, I'm using the technique and am on 3 weeks of no contact today. So far I would say I have improved greatly. I just felt very good and trusting and that almost 3 weeks in a row with little down phases but today I'm having quite a low point and I thought I'd share my thoughts in the hope someone could give me advice on how to eliminate them or what to do and think. I'd be so grateful for any advice. To truly remain on NC and focus on good things I have kept my phone switched off for 3 weeks now and avoided all social media. I had been stalking social media for a long while and it had made me feel incredibly bad. These 3 weeks have been a real recovery but I can't let my phone switched off much longer. For my family and two best friends I was available via landline but I do have other contacts that I only communicate with via Whatsapp. I do think many must already be a bit cross with me because I disappeared just like that but honestly I needed it. However, today or tomorrow morning is the day where I need to re-activate my social media life - but I'm today quite afraid of what my reaction will be when I see that my SP hasn't reached out. Plus, very negative thoughts are trying to conquer my mind for a few hours now - like when he said in January that what happened between us "was years ago. I want to keep you as a friend". I'm starting to think he may have just move on and I should too (but I believe I can't love any other man right now or anywhere soon) and all these self-sabotaging thoughts.  All these days and weeks I could deal with them quite easily. Also, when I thought about not having a message by him I told myself "no problem, he will contact you again somewhere" but at the moment I'm really quite sad and desperate. I do have some hormonal stuff going on right now which may be the reason for this and I don't want to think about such things. I find myself being disappointed about myself because I should trust more and truly believe it. But I'm quite anxious at the moment. [/quote]