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[quote=awesomesauce88]I do want to note last Tuesday we saw each other and i mentioned to him how i was not happy i was not going to this thing. I mentioned i know what happens on these things and he told me he is rooming with a mutual guy friend and this girls parents are going to be there too. Idk it seemed like the way he was saying it (hard to type out) was trying to be reassuring? I am not sure., but that was the same night he kept calling me ex and saying we probably should stop sleeping together but he does not want to idk I mean he just like two weeks ago said what i did was girlfriend material and that we have a lot to talk about it but do we? no no we dont...ok ok i guess my frustration is getting to me. Is there a non punishable way i can let my anger out about this cabin trip which i hope is cancelled or he cant go to or that noone can go to or that i hope this is the worst cabin trip for anyone in the history of the planet?? and i just want to maintain him being loving i am tired of the switches...because Dec seemed so close i was not using the technique then in fact i dont know what i was doing...maybe just focusing on having fun with him. i m ranting...can i just journal this stuff to maybe try to get it out? [/quote]