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[quote=queenstarfish71360][quote=Jess]I think I need to avoid PW for the rest of the month. I was doing great for almost a week now (not really thinking about him, not checking his social media). I've just been focusing on me and my career. I did a PW session last night though because I figured I was due for one (it had been awhile since the last one), but I've noticed something about PW makes me become obsessed with my target the next day or two later. I'm not sure what the cause of that is... I'm not sure if it's a subconscious eagerness to hear from him after doing PW or if it's his emotions that I'm feeling... I don't know, but it really does set me back. For the past week I've actually convinced myself of why I'm better off without him. Like I could list 101 reasons why. But for some reason, the day after doing PW, I miss him again and actually started tearing up and reminiscing about all the good times together. I don't understand how my emotions can shift like that unless I'm not as over him as I thought. I think a few of you have experienced this phenomenon as well... It's just so frustrating because i know in order for this remote influence to work, you have to be able to let go.  I think I'm going to refrain from PW for the rest of the month even though the idea of losing control over him pains me. I know my POI is talking to other women while keeping me in consideration, so I don't want him to forget me. I know being too passive is not going to pay off in regards to winning him over since the other women are competing hard for him, but I can't help but feel like a man that I have to "fight" for is just not worth it anyway.  Anyway, I'm gonna avoid PW for at least the next week and see how I feel. I tend to feel fine for days when I don't do it, but once I pick it back up again, I relapse into a depression (if not depression, than a deep arousal for my POI). I'm tired of feeling like this. A part of me wants to move on and work on myself so I can be ready for my ideal partner, but a part of me still wants to hear from this original POI. I'm still trying to at least manifest an apology...  Another vent session lol. Thanks for reading. I guess this is my official progress thread. [/quote] I think this is wise!! Work on loving your self!! Loving your self is very important!! I truly belive that we can't  really and truly love another until we learn to love ourselves> Iam working on my self now and doing PW a little.. with no presure!! I know my SP has a lot to work on also! I consentrate on living my life and working on me!!  [/quote]