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[quote=Orange]Sooo I was with my ex close to 10 years ago. It ended because I took him for granted and was dealing with issues from childhood etc. My mental health was bad. I wasn't a great girlfriend eventho I loved him a lot and he couldn't with it. We were together around a year or a bit more and lived together, were close to each other's family etc. he ended things with me, but he was upset about it, he cried. Honestly he is the sweetest man I've met. He really tried with me. We didn't have ANY contact until 2 years ago, when he randomly text me on Facebook. Around this time I had been using PW and BWD on someone totally different. Ex wasn't even on my mind one bit. I can't even remember the conversations much, but I know he got really sexual in general. He told me he was on a break or something with his girlfriend. I actually can't remember if he said a break or they actually broke up for a while idk. I was dealing with emotions about the guy I liked then (,total idiot btw) and was getting annoyed with ex's msgs. And I just didn't really care lol. Don't get me wrong, ive always had love for him and took me a long time to move on , but I had excepted we were overs years ago! I ended up blocking him after a few days. I blame the sexual chat on the BWD, cause it was out of character for him! I know he wasn't my target, but I've read about people from past picking up the energy and reaching out, and I experienced that with a few other guys too. So that was that. I did see him about a year later hand in hand with his girlfriend, so knew they had got back together. Fast forward to just 3 weeks ago. I bumped into this guy and I knew I knew him. I recognised the face and the name on his tag, but couldn't for the life of me remember how I knew him. I think it must have been in my subconscious cause a week after that I started thinking about the ex. When I decided to msg him I remembered it was his friend! Anyway. Yes I decided to msg him on Facebook 2 weeks ago, I wasn't overly bothered if he replied but I thought it'd be nice if he was single cause he really was such a great person. It would be nice to have a second chance. His relationship status was not visible on his profile and everything except his profile pic was private . I reached out just saying hello and he replied within 10 mins. We just had small talk basically . Did some snooping and quickly worked out he was in a relationship with the same woman. I was prepared for that convo to be the last. But a couple of days later he initiated. So basically we would talk almost daily and he would do most of the initiating and also we would keep the convo going etc. He seemed to be initiating contact with silly little things like "did you get Halloween candy" "are you looking forward to fireworks" it seemed he just wanted to talk a lot. The conversations were never sexual, they were friendly, but I felt like they had affectionate undertones and maybe slightly flirty undertones too. But nothing OTT sure. But I mean, we would text at 11 at night sometimes, eventho he lives with his gf. We even text around 50-60 msgs on a few nights! Idk his gf but personally if I was her and knew he was texting an ex the much i wouldn't be over the moon. I can only assume she didn't know. If it was any other man I wouldn't have kept texting him. But it was him. I even asked if he wanted to stop talking since he has a gf, he said no. A week ago I had started using Lanie's techniques, cause I wanted to hear he misses me, has feelings etc. Things on the outside remained the same, but the sessions were quite intense. I felt a lot of emotions in them. I felt like he would've felt them too. Fast forward to yesterday evening. I changed my fb profile pic, and he text within minutes (we hadn't been talking that day yet) saying new profile pic with a thumbs up emoji. I replied with the eyes emoji and he replied with one glass emoji, like when you are inspecting something. I had had a few drinks and I acted on my emotions. I told him I have feelings for him again. He said "well I don't feel the same" so I asked why he text me so much and he said "I thought you wanted to be friends, sorry if I have you that impression" I said it doesn't make a lot of sense cause I don't talk to friends daily esp not male, but I guess we are different there. I then basicaly said I'm glad he's happy, sorry for the past and if it was now I think it could be perfect and I'd never take you for granted. That has to be my last words cause it's hurting. He replied saying "don't be sorry it's all experience and makes us stronger, there were good times too and I hope your family are well as well, good luck" and at some point between after then and this morning he blocked me. So that's the current reality. I'm blocked and he apparently doesn't have feelings. Last night I cried all night. Today I'm still feeling a bit sad, but I'm not convinced. Am I crazy to think wanting to talk to an ex, or a friend, so much isn't really usual behaviour? In person he's more introverted type so I don't understand the want/need to talk as much if no feelings. Anyone I asked for advice, said they don't think he'd be talking so much if there wasn't feelings. I just feel like it's not over yet. I haven't blocked him back and I'm going to keep doing Lanie's techniques every day. I really hope i can report back with a success story! Any thoughts and/or advice on my situation would be amazing! I'm trying to remain positive,but of course it's hard when such things happens.[/quote]