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[quote=Orange]I know nobody has replied yet,but I'm going to use this as a kind of diary. Also it will help someone down the line, cause I promise this will be a success story. So let me get some negative out of the way. I regret so much telling Mr S how I feel and saying they were my last words. I wish I had just gone with the flow and used the techniques while being in contact. All is not over though I know. I would like to get my worry out, so I can concentrate on the positive. I'm worried he won't contact cause 1. I said it's hurting me. 2. I called him out on texting me a lot and initiating. I think this will be his resistance. Those are my worries I'm trying to get over. I miss talking to him so much. At this point I'm not even lying,that I would be happy having him as a friend at least. Yes I want more and I know I will get more, but I just want the contact back full stop! I guess I'm saying waiting is HARD! I would not recommend doing this unless you are sure the POI is worth it! Or you are at least very detached and its just a bit of fun. On the more positive, I still keep thinking about how much he DID want to talk to me. And I'm sure he is missing it too! It became a thing for a couple of week, so yeah that along with the techniques he's missing me surely. I tried to look at it from an outside prospective. If a friend or a stranger had told me the full story, asked for my opinion, I would say it sounds like he does have feelings but he got scared when you (I) put it out in the open. Maybe he thought it was safe when it wasn't spoken about. But then when he knew for sure I have feelings,he thought he had to nip it in the bud and the best way is to deny and run away. He's probably feeling guilty on his girlfriend, cause he's really a great guy. But we are not going to cheat, he is fully mine 😃 A few days ago, I woke up with a very random song in my head. I haven't heard or thought about the song, or band, in YEARS. The song is about loving and hating an ex at the same time. I sure don't hate him and I hope he doesn't hate me! Haha.it maybe nothing, but thought it's worth noting. An old film we had been talking about was mentioned on a game show. No big deal, but I hadn't been paying attention to the show but was drawn to that question. I've been seeing repeated numbers like 1111 2222 4444 etc. Wednesday I didn't do any techniques. I just wasn't in the mood, plus the previous couple sessions weren't great. I just didn't feel the emotions that well. But late last night I did kinda a mix of PW and BWD. I felt a lot of emotion, we felt really connected. In fact when I called his name, I swear he turned and smiled by himself . It did not feel like I was controlling that. Also I said to him "I'm imagining you with your old hairstyle, cause it's easier me to visualise", and I SWEAR he laughed by himself!!! It was just... different. But after that, I was real restless. I kept waking up with him on my mind heavily. I then had a dream about him, the first dream about him in years. We we met up and was hanging out a couple of times, but both times he just disappeared. I was trying to figure out why and where he had gone . That unfortunately tells me that I'm still focusing too much on lack. Gotta change that! I was having him say "I'm still in love with you" ",you are the one I want to be in a relationship with" etc. but I've decided to start smaller. It's easier for me to believe and I believe it will break his resistance. So the plan for now... have him say "I miss talking to you" "I love talking to you" "my life is better with you in it" I tell him "I miss you too" "I would love to hear from you" "unblock me and send me a message" "a hello is fine," I'm just wanting to be unblocked for starters! I will do this once or twice daily, unless I'm really not in the right mood! I will also do a bit of BWD, maybe once or twice a week. But I'm not going to overdo it at this point. I will listen to subliminals a few times a week. There's a "make him obsessed with you" and "get contact from an ex" that people have had good success with. I will also visualise daily a text from him coming through and me being unblocked. I will try to let go more and be in the present. When he does come into my mind, when I start to worry, I will tell myself "he is mine," "he is thinking of me" "I trust the universe" and just visualise nice things related to him/us. I will not keep looking to see if he's unblocked me. I find that hard, so to be fair on myself I will allow myself to check just once a day for now instead of several! I will only check the 3rd parties fb every few days until I'm totally ready to stop! I know I should stop completely and I will try,but for now I'll do it a lot less AT LEAST. These are my plans for now. If I don't get the desired results in a few weeks, I might just go back to going full on "I'm still in love with you" again and be more patient Idk. Be back soon![/quote]