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[quote=Believe111]Thank you for this reassurance. Honestkg, the current reality is screaming that he has really moved on and only reason he came back was because he felt this guilt that he wronged me. Before contacting me after 5 months of silence, he talked to a common friend and told her he feels guilty but he want to just be friends. He thinks we are very different people. He seems very stubborn and sounds like he made up his mind. He called me today just to check on me if I was doing fine due to pandemic and I just talked and laughed with him pretending that I am also cool but immediately after call I felt horrible coz I get this feeling from him that he just only sees me as a friend. Sometimes I feel is he just using me to get over this guilt; to clear his conscience. I dont know, but I am still holding on. I will. Your comment that if he is in touch that means he has some feeling for me is reassuring but the way he is talking and texting me screams like I am nothing more than a friend for him. He has never called me late at night. I am all by myself and working from home these days. I wanted to use this time to apply Lanies techniques but somehow everyday I wake up with this emptiness and no energy to continue this. I really really want to ask him to come over and stay with me for couple of days during this lockdown period, but I dont know how to word it and I am afraid it might backfire.. I keep saying the statements like he loves me all the time. But I have been so lazy or demotivated based on current situation that I havent really been able to discipline myself to apply these techniques. I can’t thank you enough because your responses are so positive and I keep reading the last message that you sent me because it gave me alot of positivity. I really want to pick myself up and succeed at bringing him back to my life as my lover and him proposing me and marrying me.[/quote]