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[quote=Believe111]Hello dear, your message brings me hope everytime. I am feeling so defeated and tired. I havent really done any technique with full discipline. When he was talking as friends, I was still sad to see him being so happy and okay with the fact that we are nothing more than friends. Now that we are NC, I still feel sad because everytime my phone pings, I run to see it it is his message. So many thoughts of him being into someone keep scaring me. We have been in relationship since 2015 and every single minute I spent praying and dedicating my heart soul into this because him coming into my life was a miracle. It has been almost a year since he called it quits. For him we are past and he keeps saying that. He keeps saying move on, find someone; now that we are NC, my heart keep longing for him. I just want to be able to sit down and practice Lanie’s techniques but I also worry I might get too attached and desperate. Thank you for being there and giving me that ray of hope. My parents wants me to start looking for someone else. I am 36 now and they are worried for how long I will wait. I have no answer for anyone. I am just very torn. I feel traumatized that he left me in this deep mess at age when in our culture girls are already settled. I had fought with my family and convinced them that he was one for me and it took me a year to be able to talk to them. I have fought so many battles for him and here he is so casual about the relationship we had and calls it a past now. I am very torn today but I still pray for a miracle that he turns around and this time he comes only to marry me and no games. I hope to gather myself up today and maybe start applying these techiques. My heart still yearns for him and I know that I have no energy and desire to be with anyone else but him. Was it too much to ask? God knows how much I begged and prayed.[/quote]