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[quote=Orange1][quote=Rebeca G.]This thread was fun to read. Thanks for posting. :)[/quote] Thanks, Rebeca! I forgot about this thread but decided to check out the forum and then remembered haha. Wow it's been a long time so a lot to unpack. But I will try to keep it as short and to the point as possible. A week or so after realising I was unblocked, I had that inspired action feeling of contacting him first. I know I wanted him to contact me first, but thought whatever I'll just go with it. I sent a friendly message asking if he wanted to be friends. He sent a very welcoming message back asking how I am etc. We caught up on how each other are and made sure our families are all Covid free etc. For a while it was slowerthan usual and like he was keeping a bit of distance between us. I let it happen while still doing the techniques. In time it went back to normal with us chit chatting more like friends again, sending links each other would like etc. It still seemed like we weren't letting things get deeper than the surface tho which was frustrating for me. Well one night I was feeling sorry myself and pissed with him. I sent him a kinda b*chy message asking why he even unblocked me. I know I know guys... Why??? He told me how he unblocked a few people from his past. I said how are situation was different. He said he was starting to feel like it was a bad idea. I then sent an emotional message how I just wanted a deeper understanding of of him and what happened in the past and how I never got closure the first time he abandoned me ( yes I used that word cause that's how it felt.) It was like I had opened some floodgates or something. He said he didn't know I felt that he has abandoned me, how he was sorry I felt that way. How he did love me back then but couldn't cope with my mental health problems etc.told me how he didn't understand it back then, but now he does cause he had an accident that left him with some mental health issues. We opened up more about the past. I said I forgive him and he did the right thing back then leaving me, but it's such a shame etc. He kept saying how he just couldn't cope and it was stressful for him but he hated hurting me. He even said we could continue these conversations if I wish. That was around 6 months ago and since that conversation we are much more closer. I feel he trusts me now and letting our bond grow deeper. I did start a relationship with someone else a few months ago so I had to have some boundaries for myself and didn't continue the meditations. But we still kept in touch. Also a few dreams about him in that time (with lots of cuddling!) This guy ended up being a cruel narcissist and hurting me deeply. I leaned on Mr S emotionally about it when it ended and he was so sorry and comforting. He leans on me emotionally too and tells me about his mental health and his family members illness. It's getting deeper every time with us. I no longer tell him in the 3D world how I want more with him. I just be his friend and let it grow. You guys, I don't know why I done this tonight but I hope it pays off. I've been getting this nagging "voice" the past few days telling me to come off the fb app we use (I only really use it for him) and give him my number. So tonight I just went with it. I'm like OK I guess. I messaged him that I was coming off the app for the foreseeable future, but here's my number if you want to keep in touch through text. He quickly replied asking if I'm doing OK and that he wants me to come back stronger and take care of myself. I replied not really it comes in waves. You know where I am, keep my number. No reply to that and I've uninstalled the app like the universe apparently wants me to *shrugs* I think he's trying to reject my number politely right now cause of the third party. But all I can say is his vibe is so different with me these days. Like he's protective of me. I believe he will give in and contact my number with a little help from the LOA. I don't know why the universe wants this, but here we are.[/quote]