You need to start taking antidepressants and anxiety pills. You are throwing your life away and you are only 25. Are you willing to lose everything and become homeless?
For how many months you were with this girl? Did you live together?
Do you think she wants a man without a job?
Dude, really, you need medication. Your problem is not this girl, your problem is you.

I definitely need more than pills. I'm on pills. I appreciate the suggestions.

I'm feeling a little better I guess (long story, don't ask how it even happened...) but I joined one of those adult sites where you share your cam, doing sexual things and whatnot. I've already had a LOT of girls follow me, so that felt nice. Also, they couldn't stop telling me how hot I am, and how blue my eyes are and how amazing my smile is...

So that made me feel better! LOL.

I have about 200 followers in less than a day so that's cool. Sure, a lot are guys. But there are a lot of girls too. So the compliments made me feel pretty great  P - Also, a lot of the girls who are now following me, who've complimented me are SO cute. So that brought my esteem way up. I was looking at some of my followers' profiles, and one lives in the exact town and country my girl is from. I was blown away...

So I guess I'm feeling a little better. Still rough though. But it's nice to see, no matter how horny, or the lack thereof, that I've been getting AMAZING compliments on my looks from incredibly INCREDIBLY hawt girls

... also I've already made like 50 bucks doing that, so there's another plus. Ha

Last edited by ThisIsMyUsername (9/22/2016 9:58 am)

You are really going about this the wrong way.

I'll spare the song and dance about why I think what you're doing is demeaning to you as a person.  But, you are trying to create circumstances to console yourself which is directly against LOA teachings.  You are supposed to feel happy and then the circumstances present themselves.

Though you might find temporary satisfaction, it is troubling to think you are going deeper into a dark place, making it harder and harder for you to dig yourself out later.

I really don't think this forum can help you. You do need professional help: someone to work with you face to face, and giving you more professional support than any one of us can offer.

I would suggest you seek out a life coach that might be able to help you a little better, if you are not fond of your therapist.

At some point, you need to start doing the work, and this is definitely not it!

Please get some help.

Last edited by DC (9/22/2016 4:20 pm)

Thanks guys for all of your help, really. Thank you. I'm trying so hard to stay positive to counteract how I'm feeling. But I just wanted to pop in and say that I'm thankful for all of you. Despite my negativity and depression/anxiety, you all are here for me and it feels really nice knowing someone is there for you. So just know that it really makes me feel good having people who care. Thank you.

Thank you so much, Em)

I do have a question...


I have this odd sense of being SUPER connected to her. like, it's a feeling coming from my heart. A feeling of oneness with her... I can't explain it, but I feel "linked" with her... does that mean anything?