The expecting it but not makes perfect sense. Words are powerful and maybe even saying that to your friend meant you let go in some sense to let him.  

You are definitely further forward and need to remember that.  If you've done it before you'll do it again.  

To be fair I've been overthinking today (I've been on my own) and keep swinging from positive to not (though the good thing is I can feel myself swinging there and don't stay there long - and this board is a great board of support).  I think it's part of the trusting the unseen when there is silence.  You're right, It is hard to keep up that pure faith  when they are there and when they are not.  

Ha ha!  Yes, I've been caught in that trap before.  He's come back and I'm wondering why he's not behaving as I want him to RIGHT NOW.  In fact that's the reason we broke up this time around. I rushed things and didn't give it the space it needed to grow.  Perhaps part of this process is also learning to detach from the situation once we are in it again....and we will be in it again  

Thank you so much for the recommendation!  I read "Remember when"  about three times this morning.  It's excellent, really helped put things into perspective.  I hadn't read that one, and will use that often, thanks again.  

EFT tapping is great, although I forget about it and I think it's one that needs consistency. I also like Ho oponopo which I use when resistance arises that needs acknowledging and letting go.  

Yes having fun.... note to self to remember that part...particularly when facing reality after spending a weekend with the luxury of being purely introspective and alone....

 

Last edited by Jag123 (10/30/2016 9:39 am)

OMG - I was blocked also on whatsapp...noticed it now. I was chatting with him today on whatsapp. Just asked him about work and he wrote back something and he kind of pissed me off but knowing him he was joking. No argument nothing.
In our whatsapp group this guy uploaded a video of a woman that gives guys sexual therapy or something..touches them everywhere while the guys are naked. I wrote that maybe i should change professions. He wrote back that nobody will invest. I wrote back 'LOL....yea right..i already have requests'.

I told my friend that i feel like blocking him..didn't really mean it and was thinking maybe he should block me and now i checked his whatsapp  and see that the last seen is gone and also the status!

Anyway, no reason for him to block me. Last time he blocked me from everywhere was over a year ago coz his wife didn't want him to be in touch with me but he told me before. He went NC for a year and contacted me again when he thought he was going to get a divorce.

This sucks!! Also, since i am very negative today don't think i should do visualisation. I am on the verge of tears.

 

Last edited by collie (10/30/2016 2:41 pm)

If I were you Collie, I'd take the time to make peace with where I was. I wouldn't visualise or meditate on him from a place of confusion, desperation or lack.  I would allow all the feelings of frustration, confusion and anger  to bubble to the surface and allow myself to feel them all, then attempt to make peace with where I am without needing it to change.  If you do meditate, do it for yourself and your own alignment.  Focussing on anything outside of yourself from a place of lack or desperation and only exacerbates the situation.  Then it becomes a cycle of feeling bad, and trying to fix things when it's just not your job. It all starts with you, you need to be at peace and feeling good - that's all your job is.  Take the focus back to yourself if only for a short time, you're worth it!

My heart goes out to you, because I know exactly how you feel 

xx

Thanks all for the replies. Honestly, I didn't sleep well. I am so tired and have a headache. This morning I found out why I was blocked..yesterday we were texting and he said something that pissed me off...teased me...so i called him an idiot twice. So as punishment he blocked me for a week. That is so typical him...yes..childish too but that is him.
So, i find it amusing. I think after he unblocks me maybe i will block him!! ;)
But I am not feeling well today as i didn't sleep well.
I always read the books/pdfs recommended here so I will definitely check out the technique "remember when".
It sucks that my feelings are affected by him...i need to concentrate on the reality that i want with him and the job.

Pixelpie - can I script a day at the specific company and with my guy in one script?

About my current job..i am trying to focus on the positive and there are alot of positive stuff esp. now but when i get better -recovering from broken hand - i just can't see myself going back there. I want to go to work at that bank and when i visualise i see myself signing a contract and everyone congratulating me and me holding my employee's card.

Thanks so much for the support and I love that nobody judges here. Thank you!