Hey lovelies ,

I had yesterday such an awesome LOA/PW situation that I really have to share!

Yesterday morning I woke up in a really low state and quite depressing mood (something bad really had to happen after such negativ feelings) so after being in contact with my guy everyday (texting everyday, sometimes calls and sometimes short visits) mainly because his old and my new passion world of warcraft lmao but still! If that's what will bring us back together I'll take it :D. But yesterday morning I missed him like hell though and started to overthink a lot. Later my mum called and I started crying because of that and as mums are she hates to hear me crying and so he became a enemy to my mum at this moment and she said all these things he doesn't do by now like why we aren't going to a restaurant or watching movies or just spending more time together and totally blend it out that we're having a really good contact right now and he visits me from time to time but better than nothing I guess ...and we're playing almost everyday together so at least our characters are kind of dating lmao. Long story short she made me forget all the things he did already like inviting me to the movies once, bringing me a present from his vacation, helping me with the game, giving me calls and so on ...

Soooo I was really depressed and I wrote him and the chaos started. At my absolutely low state I sad all these bad stuff you shouldn't say like 'why aren't we spending more time together', 'I'm lonely and feeling bad' 'I miss you' oh gosh soooo emberassing and awkward.

So you have to know right now he has a really hard time he needs a new home until mid december and atm it's really hard to find one so he's very anxious about that and has stress in work as well. At this times he usually doesn't see anybody and is only playing games. Usually I did notice that because I didn't hear much from him if he's that way and plays only games but now that I'm playing with him and we kinda spend time together I didn't notice that and thought (in my depressing state lol) that we don't spend enough time together.

So he answered if I'm serious and that I'm the only person he's seeing right now beside his family and if that's not enough then we should stop that. He would rather end everything instead of be judged for not spending enough time with me. And on this day I was the third person who said that he doesn't have enough time so he was really mad at me... I was crying sooo much and was afraid he really would leave me and even this process we made by now would be broken again. So I said 'okay.. i'll leave you alone..' 'thanks!'
First I kept crying BUT then!!! I remembered PW and what Sam talked about in another thread and I tried it!

- first I calmed down
- then I layed in my bed and did some PW and told him that I'm sorry but I'm only missing him and imagined him to say me he's sorry as well
- then I heard the ho'oponopono song (love that you definitely should listen to it if you're in such a situation)
- and then I just thought to me: what happened doesn't matter at all!! The Universe will fix it just calm down and be fine.

So I listened to music (disney songs haha), played WoW, watched a movie and suddenly!!!!! I got a message 'I'm sorry' I only answered 'mhm it's okay...' later I went only on WoW and only after a few minutes he texted me their and we played together. He was soo nice to me and it was like nothing ever happened. He sent me kisses with his character lol and before he went to bed he even said 'sweet dreams shorty' *.*

So what I'm trying to say as Sam already told you it is true you can't do anything wrong! If it's meant to be it will work and you just should relax and everything will be fine again no matter what crazy you did haha.

I love you honeys )

xxx