I know nobody has replied yet,but I'm going to use this as a kind of diary. Also it will help someone down the line, cause I promise this will be a success story.

So let me get some negative out of the way. I regret so much telling Mr S how I feel and saying they were my last words. I wish I had just gone with the flow and used the techniques while being in contact. All is not over though I know. I would like to get my worry out, so I can concentrate on the positive. I'm worried he won't contact cause 1. I said it's hurting me. 2. I called him out on texting me a lot and initiating. I think this will be his resistance. Those are my worries I'm trying to get over.

I miss talking to him so much. At this point I'm not even lying,that I would be happy having him as a friend at least. Yes I want more and I know I will get more, but I just want the contact back full stop! I guess I'm saying waiting is HARD! I would not recommend doing this unless you are sure the POI is worth it! Or you are at least very detached and its just a bit of fun.

On the more positive, I still keep thinking about how much he DID want to talk to me. And I'm sure he is missing it too! It became a thing for a couple of week, so yeah that along with the techniques he's missing me surely. I tried to look at it from an outside prospective. If a friend or a stranger had told me the full story, asked for my opinion, I would say it sounds like he does have feelings but he got scared when you (I) put it out in the open. Maybe he thought it was safe when it wasn't spoken about. But then when he knew for sure I have feelings,he thought he had to nip it in the bud and the best way is to deny and run away.  He's probably feeling guilty on his girlfriend, cause he's really a great guy. But we are not going to cheat, he is fully mine 😃

A few days ago, I woke up with a very random song in my head. I haven't heard or thought about the song, or band, in YEARS. The song is about loving and hating an ex at the same time. I sure don't hate him and I hope he doesn't hate me! Haha.it maybe nothing, but thought it's worth noting. An old film we had been talking about was mentioned on a game show. No big deal, but I hadn't been paying attention to the show but was drawn to that question. I've been seeing repeated numbers like 1111 2222 4444 etc.

Wednesday I didn't do any techniques. I just wasn't in the mood, plus the previous couple sessions weren't great. I just didn't feel the emotions that well. But late last night I did kinda a mix of PW and BWD. I felt a lot of emotion, we felt really connected. In fact when I called his name, I swear he turned and smiled by himself . It did not feel like I was controlling that. Also I said to him "I'm imagining you with your old hairstyle, cause it's easier me to visualise", and I SWEAR he laughed by himself!!! It was just... different.

But after that, I was real restless. I kept waking up with him on my mind heavily. I then had a dream  about him, the first dream about him in years. We we met up and was hanging out a couple of times, but both times he  just disappeared. I was trying to figure out why and where he had gone . That unfortunately tells me that I'm still focusing too much on lack. Gotta change that!

I was having him say "I'm still in love with you" ",you are the one I want to be in a relationship with" etc. but I've decided to start smaller. It's easier for me to believe and I believe it will break his resistance. So the plan for now... have him say "I miss talking to you" "I love talking to you" "my life is better with you in it" I tell him "I miss you too" "I would love to hear from you" "unblock me and send me a message" "a hello is fine," I'm just wanting to be unblocked for starters! I will do this once or twice daily, unless I'm really not in the right mood!

I will also do a bit of BWD, maybe once or twice a week. But I'm not going to overdo it at this point. I will listen to subliminals a few times a week. There's a "make him obsessed with you" and "get contact from an ex" that people have had good success with. I will also visualise daily a text from him coming through and me being unblocked.

I will try to let go more and be in the present. When he does come into my mind, when I start to worry, I will tell myself "he is mine," "he is thinking of me" "I trust the universe" and just visualise nice things related to him/us. I will not keep looking to see if he's unblocked me. I find that hard, so to be fair on myself I will allow myself to check just once a day for now instead of several! I will only check the 3rd parties fb every few days until I'm totally ready to stop! I know I should stop completely and I will try,but for now I'll do it a lot less AT LEAST.

These are my plans for now. If I don't get the desired results in a few weeks, I might just go back to going full on "I'm still in love with you" again and be more patient Idk. Be back soon!

Wow, so... a few weeks after my last post above, I gave up on doing the techniques. I was just tired and done with it. I started thinking less and less of him, until eventually I totally let go of the desire and hardly thought about him anymore. I dated someone since talking to him, but it didn't work out. I've been doing the techniques on a new guy. I checked his fb to see if I was unblocked maybe like 5 times since?

Well today, almost a year after writing this thread I got a very random thought pop in my head "I wonder if S has unblocked me" lol, so I look not expecting him to at all and HE HAS!!! I actually laughed so much, it was funny to me. After that time of obsession and pain, where I would've sold my kidney just for an unblock or a msg, he has done the first part of course when I didn't care.

THE LETTING GO IS SO REAL!!! things will come to you when you let it goooo.

I think I last looked if he had unblocked me like a few months ago, so it's been within that time. Could've been today for all I know! It's around the same time last year we were talking, so I wonder if that sparked memories or something for him. NEXT... a msg from him. I'm going to start doing pw/bwd/msg visualisation again. But NOT with OBSESSION. I actually already planned to do them on a few different guys for fun and experiment. it's just I know my mind is magic and I can get him to msg me next and I can laugh again at my power hehe ;) when he comes back, it's friendly but casual unattached vibes from me, he will be wondering who tf I am in a good way!!!

Rebeca G. wrote:

This thread was fun to read. Thanks for posting.

Thanks, Rebeca! I forgot about this thread but decided to check out the forum and then remembered haha. Wow it's been a long time so a lot to unpack. But I will try to keep it as short and to the point as possible.

A week or so after realising I was unblocked, I had that inspired action feeling of contacting him first. I know I wanted him to contact me first, but thought whatever I'll just go with it. I sent a friendly message asking if he wanted to be friends. He sent  a very welcoming message back asking how I am etc. We caught up on how each other are and made sure our families are all Covid free etc. For a while it was slowerthan usual and like he was keeping a bit of distance between us. I let it happen while still doing the techniques. In time it went back to normal with us chit chatting more like friends again, sending links each other would like etc. It still seemed like we weren't letting things get deeper than the surface tho which was frustrating for me.

Well one night I was feeling sorry myself and pissed with him. I sent him a kinda b*chy message asking why he even unblocked me. I know I know guys... Why??? He told me how he unblocked a few people from his past. I said how are situation was different. He said he was starting to feel like it was a bad idea. I then sent an emotional message how I just wanted a deeper understanding of of him and what happened in the past and how I never got closure the first time he abandoned me ( yes I used that word cause that's how it felt.)

It was like I had opened some floodgates or something. He said he didn't know I felt that he has abandoned me, how he was sorry I felt that way. How he did love me back then but couldn't cope with my mental health problems etc.told me how he didn't understand it back then, but now he does cause he had an accident that left him with some mental health issues. We opened up more about the past. I said I forgive him and he did the right thing back then leaving me, but it's such a shame etc. He kept saying how he just couldn't cope and it was stressful for him but he hated hurting me. He even said we could continue these conversations if I wish.

That was around  6 months ago and since that conversation we are much more closer. I feel he trusts me now and letting our bond grow deeper. I did start a relationship with someone else a few months ago so I had to have some boundaries for myself and didn't continue the   meditations. But we still kept in touch. Also a few dreams about him in that time (with lots of cuddling!) This guy ended up being a cruel narcissist and hurting me deeply. I leaned on Mr S emotionally about it when it ended and he was so sorry and comforting. He leans on me emotionally too and tells me about his mental health and his family members illness. It's getting deeper every time with us. I no longer tell him in the 3D world how I want more with him. I just be his friend and let it grow.

You guys, I don't know why I done this tonight but I hope it pays off. I've been getting this nagging "voice" the past few days telling me to come off the fb app we use (I only really use it for him) and give him my number. So tonight I just went with it. I'm like OK I guess. I messaged him that I was coming off the app for the foreseeable future, but here's my number if you want to keep in touch through text. He quickly replied asking if I'm doing OK and that he wants me to come back stronger and take care of myself. I replied not really it comes in waves. You know where I am, keep my number. No reply to that and I've uninstalled the app like the universe apparently wants me to *shrugs* I think he's trying to reject my number politely right now cause of the third party. But all I can say is his vibe is so different with me these days. Like he's protective of me. I believe he will give in and contact my number with a little help from the LOA. I don't know why the universe wants this, but here we are.