Long story short, I watched this channel in youtube about manifesting in 48 hours.
All I have to do is visualizing in 68 seconds and let it go to the universe to materialized. Everytime I feel like "ruining" my 68 seconds effort where reality contradicts my wishes, I screamed out "yes!!". The word "yes" helped me a lot in confirming my wishes. So, today is the 48 hrs due and, low and behold, the sign of manifestation is just soooo real that I literally can feel it at the tips of my fingers.
I saw my man's facebook and there he's posting his regrets and an hour before he said something that sounds like suicide note (no, it wasn't cool). I tried not to freak out and I started another 68 seconds visualization again for the next 48 hrs. Basically just sending him love and forgiveness, and visualized him to reach out for me.
Anyway, although I did hope he learned some lessons, I have forgiven him.
I won't reach out for him though, no matter how tempted I am and how panick I am-consider to his suicide note. I'll wait for the next 48 hours. Anyway, yesterday was the last day of the first week for my love spell journey-based on Lanie's book&with the help of her amazing MP3 meditation guidance-, so I guess I just chill and wait for everything to be revealed by the universe.

I know I made the right decision not to reach him out of panick tonight. I'm not selfish, I'm just trying to stay to the rule of the universe.

Keep up the positive vibe, guys!