Thank you....I have been getting more of a feeling and telling him how much he misses me, but its turning into me missing him....like lots more than I used to. Its been a year since I've seen him and texted regularly. I spent the winter keeping busy, changing directions in order to forget about him, but then I found this forum.
So referencing some LOA stuff, if I am wanting him to miss me, I am kinda wishing that on myself to.....like me missing him.
This is starting to backfire for me.
I did start a very tiring job...kinda losing mental control. Today is the pits...lol...bring back the 70's. Don't think people use that phrase anymore. But I am suddenly super busy and super tired and all I want to do is lay around and daydream about a better life.
I have always had trouble letting go to anger, jealousy, resentment. I do not express it outwardly, always act cool as a cuke in public. And now I can't let go of these darn feelings for him. Arghhhh.
So this heart ache, I feel like not only am I creating it, I am creating it from a situation that never really took off anyway. I mean I can't imagine how embarrassed I would feel if anyone dirt side knew how desperate I've become....yikes. And over a short term friendship that I wanted to last forever....hmmmm.
Confession is good. This feels good. That's a start.
Thanks again.
Last edited by annabelle (7/14/2018 10:58 am)