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Hello ladies, I want to share something with you all. I had a success of sorts. So a short back story.

Met these two brothers in July, they're from another country. We added each other on social media and xbox to keep in touch. A month later one brother messages me to play video games with him.

So I don't want to tell all the unnecessary details because it will be long, but its been a little over a month 'hanging out' with this guy online, I'm smitten with him. This past month I couldn't really control my emotions like at all. I have cried every single day, missed work two days in two weeks because i just couldnt be around people( i never miss work), i had pains in my chest that wouldnt go away.

I told him pretty much immediately how I feel about him, like 2 weeks into it. He didn't freak out or get turn off by my honesty, which i thought was a little strange. I blocked him and removed him twice for about 3 days each. I told him how i feel and that i cant be just friends with him if he doesnt feel the same. He told me he would give me space and he'll always be here if im ever ready.

So to get to the success part, as the month went on i would PW and BWD more and more with each increasing day. This past Tuesday I blocked him told him I'm in too much pain i shouldn't feel like this, he told me he'll miss me and hope its not goodbye. Past couple days ive felt better than ever, havent cried, the pain in my chest stopped and i finally feel normal.

I of course was still constantly thinking about him but it was calming. I decided to PW and BWD him like crazy the past couple days, literally any chance i got. I wasnt expecting, but i just knew he was getting my messages if that makes sense. I would tell him "you love me, you want to be with me, you can't get me off your mind" i would also have him repeat it back to me. I also scripted a lot and did a few techniques like saying my visualization outloud. Another one that i tried which i really enjoyed is, I saw that he was playing xbox and playing a certain game. So i visualized him sitting there in real time playing his game and i whispered in his left ear "i know you really miss MoonFlower. You would be having so much more fun if you were playing with MoonFlower. You can contact her, its okay. You would feel so much better talking to MoonFlower. I know how happy MoonFlower makes you feel. You shouldn't have let her go, you should have made her stay"

Okay i could go on and on but you get the gist. Anyway i did a lot of the third person talking, PW and BWD as much as i could, at work, at home, literally any minute i had to myself. I just wanted him to think about me.

So last night i write a lengthy email talking about my feelings and how i cant stop thinking abouy him but that i feel much better. Which btw its so weird how comfortable I am telling him how i really feel, i feel no judgement when i talk to him.

He replied to my email this morning and man let me tell you how happy i am. First he admitted that he is in love with me, that for the past few days i have constantly been on his mind more than normal, he said "my mind has been shouting at me for letting you go and not asking you to stay" hmm i wonder why >

He also said he felt immediately drawn to me when we first met, i just thought he was a cool guy so its definitely good to know that he liked me from the start and i feel ive been helping strengthen those feelings.

Only bad thing is he told me he has a girlfriend and he loves her but said he is in love with me. He doesnt want to be 'that' guy and be an asshole and go after two women. But i told him its okay i understand, with the distance we cant be together anyway ( i told him i would never want a long distance relationship )
I told him its good that i know now, so that way i wont try to pressure him to do something.

Im not gonna make him break up with her and we both talked  and said we're not going to do anything questionable. Just be friends for now, we both want each other in our lives.

I know in the future we'll be living together and married. I'm Just glad right now that he has these feelings for me, and that we can be open and honest with each other. 

Im going to continue doing PW and BWD and maybe even the third person talking , but just not as intense. Im also going to visualize my self moving in with him and getting married. Gotta do baby steps since i dont have the funds so i gotta get the how out of my head.

But yeah i was struggling the past month but i kept at it. Don't give up. Everyone situation is different, i know some of you cant just go and tell them how you really feel without the fear of them running away. I do want you all to be happy and not give up. Ive been lurking and feel you all have helped me a lot. I hope this motivates some one .