I am so overburdened with everything going on in my life. My parents are getting out of town, because they can't handle me asking for help, it leads to us getting into arguments. I don't have anyone to talk to... anyway, the reason I brought this up is because I was venting about it to my closest 2 friends (they're video game buds I met online. Sad right? That's how antisocial and just to myself I've been since this whole thing) and I was venting while talking to one of them via a mic, over a video game system, and saying, "I just wish everything were as it were a year ago! Classes were going well, for the most part, I had a good job," and one of them cut me off and yelled, at me, angrily the following:

"DUDE. SHUT THE FUCK UP. STOP BEING A LITTLE BITCH AND MOVE THE FUCK ON. *GIRL'S NAME* DOESN'T HAVE ANY FEELINGS FOR YOU. SHE TOLD YOU STRAIGHT UP. LIFE ISN'T A VIDEO GAME, YOU CAN'T GO BACK. SHE'S NEVER GOING TO BE WITH YOU. LOOK AT HOW SHE'S BEEN TOWARD YOU. SHE'S PROBABLY ALREADY BANGING ANOTHER GUY. GROW SOME FUCKING BALLS AND MOVE THE FUCK ON!!! JESUS CHRIST!!"

I unplugged the mic and started breaking down, crying. I was doing well today, and I didn't even bring that up at all! In months to them! That hit me like a fucking dagger, and my vibe is suddenly at an all-time low. I was feeling great earlier today. Guess that can't FUCKING last long. Also now there's a fucking hole in the door of my room because I was so pissed and upset at what he said, I threw a shoe at the door. My fault. I get it. But last time that happened, my dad called the cops on me, after I told him there's a hole in the wall. And my expensive computer which cost roughly 2000 dollars just... stopped working. 

THANKS UNIVERSE! I'm already the family's FUCKING punching bag, this is nothing new to me. Appreciate it! 

So I got advice from my sister to give other people a try and try casual dating. I just want to feel better.

So I gave this girl a shot two days ago, light dating. And i feel super guilty. She got infatuated and clingy fast. I didn't know I'd affect her that much... today I had to tell her I cant do this as I still love my ex, which worried me because of how attached she was after just two days...I feel like I was given bad advice because I just feel really guilty now and it's hurting her...


It also helped me realize that... some of the way Im acting and doing toward her is the same stuff my ex had done to me early on... she was just out of a relationship to. She said that she can't continue because it felt like she was "emotionally cheating" on her ex... I only realized this after I said the same thing to this girl...

does that make me a rebound for my ex?:/
And does it make it any harder to be with her if I was just a rebound? To attract her back?

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Last edited by Sam (12/06/2016 4:01 pm)

Sam wrote:

ThisIsMyUsername wrote:

And does it make it any harder to be with her if I was just a rebound? To attract her back?

No, it doesn't make it harder. The only thing that makes it harder is you refusing to let the past go. Do you understand that by repeating the same details that you are keeping them active? If you want your future to be different then you have to change now. Stop reacting and start creating.

Thanks Sam. As always, I really appreciate it.

It was 2 days she'll get over it, lol