I can´t believe I am at this phase. I am anxious right now and I know better but I am having trouble calming down.
So, my success has been phenomenal with PW and BWD. My love and I had been getting closer. This past weekend we had an amazing date night. He planned a very romantic dinner and all. It was over the top, more than I could have ever dreamed of.

Well we became intimate. And he stopped because he said he felt like he had - had an out of body experience. That I felt like his missing rib and he felt this was very spiritual for him. He said the sensations was overwhelming.
Everything was good - but now he is withdrawing from me again. A mutual friend stated he told them is fearful of what happened.

Yet, I have a very good male friend of mine stated: I don´t know what you have done to him but I believe there is another woman and that this experience has scared him because he loves both of you. Not sure where that came from, but he said it happened to him once before. 

I am freaking out right now. I don´t know if it is from all the BWD and me being away from him with my traveling or if another woman is in the picture and he has gotten afraid. Nevertheless, I am now asking for advice on how to handle this.

A good girlfriend told me to revise and one told me to script how I want our next interactions to be. I am afraid to do anymore BWD and thinking of just sticking with PW. But not sure what to hear him say. He is silent with me right now.

At least I know that I am powerful! I am a very powerful woman. I want marriage with him and I had been working on hearing him talk about marriage. Now I just feel stuck and this is crazy that he has me in knots.
 

Last edited by bambi (10/21/2016 7:48 pm)