Hi everyone, I haven't posted for quite a while now but I feel like I'm going insane at the moment and wondered if anyone has had similar happen and any advice?

I still want my guy back but at the moment I'm really struggling with the negative thoughts so I've been trying to just let it go and concentrate on everything else,which I have to say is going great (thanks loa and universe :-)).

Here's what's been happening.

I was helping my friend the other week and her boss was telling me about her ex and said where he lives.its the exact same town my guy is originally from.

Two of my neighbours pets died a few weeks ago and they have buried them in the front garden and put the 1St initials of there's names as markers.they are my guys initials,so everytime I go outside I see them.

I went to help my dad sell some cattle at market and my guy turned up and ended stood right in front of me,I saw what I thought was him leave and about 20 mins later I went outside for a cigarette and there he was pulling out of the car park,I got really nervous so I just turned my back and he must have sat there for about 5 mins till he finally drove off.(there's a good chance he will have known I was there that day because he works for my dad)

I went home for a bonfire party last month and just as I was walking back over from the field, my guy walked out straight in front of me.(call me insane but we have cctv on our property and there's a good chance he was watching it and timed him walking out just as I came over)(he could have gone earlier or just hung back till I'd gone past)

I don't look for signs anymore but I remember someone on here saying they looked for initials on numberplates.so I said it would be nice to see my initials if I was married to him.never seen them in months.last week passed a car and I was thinking that had the initials I wanted,forgot about it and the next day went to the supermarket with my friend (her driving) and she parked straight in front of the car with my initials on.

On the date 11/11 I saw him drive past me at exactly 11:11am.

These are just some things that are happening.

I love my guy so much but the Christmas holidays are hard and I'm throwing myself into everything and anything to keep myself busy,my house is immaculate Haha.
It just feels like the universe really doesn't want me to forget about him at all but I can't get rid of the negative thoughts at the moment.

Thanks for reading everyone, I think I just needed a rant and to get it all out because I have no-one else to talk to and like I say I feel like I'm been screamed at by the universe.