Firstly just be calm, with this mind set you wont be able to attract anything. I understand what you are going through and it can be devastating, but being a member of LOA forum u know how to react. Take some time to just be a little calm  and analyze the situation.Did he tell u not to call him/ msg him? If not then when things settle down a little bit u can try to contact (only if u want) and without expectations. You mentioned your anxiety did the work, so dont let it spoil things anymore.
had the same experience and lost him to my own insecurities, and expectations, now being a follower of LOA i know how to handle things. You can always attract him back once  u are calm and at peace with yourself.  Keep doing PW/ BWD and things will be back to normal.

BellaLupa wrote:

I am trying, really hard. I just feel so gutted and alone.

Bella, I'm sorry that this happened to you.  I wanted to post last night but you had too many threads going.  I don't think you handled it too well especially when he texted that he needs to talk and you phoned him in desperation to see what it was about. You've got to exert your power - you should have made him come to you instead of you going over to his place, getting dumped, and then having to make your way back home all upset.  It's not safe out here and we need to stay focused when we're out and about, not crying in the tissue or upset or anything other than being focused on what's going on around us.  But anyway, you can't change what happened in the past.  You can try to get him back again but sometimes it's just easier to start fresh with a new one.