Aaaaaaaand now I've been asked out on a date by a model who's a friend of a friend. WHAT IS MY LIFE?!

Honestly, D is the only man I want, but I guess it can't hurt to go out and have a drink with a hot guy. It just feels weird because everything is so recent.

Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaand two weird synchronicities within 10 minutes of each other right after posting this:

I work from home. I was on the phone with my mom telling her about this "date" on Tuesday and sitting by my window. I look down and there's a cat I've never seen around here before that looks exactly like the dude's cat (he showed me a pic last night) sitting there staring up at me. I laugh.

I get back to work. I pull up a customer's information and there it is, in black and white. My beloved's first name, which is not the most common name and it was the less common spelling of it, which is the one he uses.

Ha ha, universe. Ha ha. I guess I AM on the right track.   

Edit: Right after I posted this, an email in my inbox with the subject "Your zen is coming."

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Thank you, beauty! I will keep on keeping on. This feels too good not to. I feel like I just had 8 cups of coffee. I love you guys for your support and care. If it's alright, I'll continue to post progress on this thread as it goes. Sharing successes feels good and supportive to my goals.

I've been doing PW/BWD on him and although he can be stubborn, I KNOW it's reaching him. 
I sneaked a peek at his Facebook today, and last night (after I did another visualization), he posted a song with lyrics that were clearly targeted toward me, about "needing to walk away", not trusting, and generally angry and resistant.

For one split second, it upset me, but then I smiled and knew that this was because I'm getting to him and he's throwing up active resistance because he FEELS it. Posting something that reactionary in public is really unlike him, so he must be in a tailspin, the poor thing. He's not the kind to whine for TOO long and he'll get past it, especially as I keep working on sending him love, forgiveness, trust, and warm fuzzies. I got this in the bag and I see this as progress that he's on his way back.  

Mind you, this is after a series of funny synchronicities today that led me to check out his FB in the first place: 

I woke up feeling "meh", so I did some stuff to raise my vibration and feel actively happy. I wanted a snack, but didn't feel like getting up to cook something and my eye fell on the bag of my stuff he returned the other night. Inside were some of the protein bars I used to keep at his house! Coconut ones, my favorite! I just smiled and said "Thanks for bringing me the snack, honey! Love you too!"

As I was eating it, I looked down at the time and it was 12:34, a number that pops up constantly for me in regards to him over the course of our relationship. And then as I scrolled through FB, I saw an ad for a pair of leggings 100% identical to the ones I wore on our first date.

Ha.

Time to focus on re-writing his emotional state.

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