So my POI and I were in contact until New Year's. We communicate mainly by email. I last heard from him a few days after New Year's, although the frequency of his emails to me had been dwindling over the past several months, he's been feeling sort of down, disillusioned with his life, etc. So his emails were maybe every 2 weeks (we're in different countries, like so many of us!) rather than weekly or every several days. But he never expressed any change in his feelings, nothing to suggest that he no longer wanted to be in contact with me. All seemed to be pretty much fine.

After his last email, I emailed him about 2.5 weeks later (which is also not unusual). Same type of email I'd usually send to him, nothing out of the ordinary. And I never heard from him again. And I have absolutely no idea why. If he wanted to cut ties with me, I *think* he'd have told me but you never know with people. Maybe he thought ghosting me would be easier than coming right out with it. It's probably not even worth speculating because it could be any number of things, I guess. But now we're in NC even though that was never something that came up, about him wanting to cut off contact.

He has a young daughter and he's with his daughter's mother but they're mainly co-parents and that's it. I'm also involved with someone, so it's a weird situation for both of us. And I've always been mindful of the fact that his daughter comes first. But we've been talking about moving forward and stuff, because my moving to his country wouldn't be a big deal for me. So I have no idea what happened.

I've been doing PW/BWD/CTC on him for a while now, I did the love spell once but stopped after the first full cycle (I didn't want to bombard him!). He always seems to gravitate towards me in PW and during the spell, and some of the sessions have felt very intimate, like he and I were really close.

Now here's my question: His birthday is April 9th. I keep thinking about whether I should email him to wish him a happy birthday, and if so, what the hell do I say? I'm trying to be positive and maintain the belief that he still loves me and he's just temporarily away for whatever reason. But I'm still feeling nervous about emailing him, my fear is that he'd reply saying that he does indeed want to cut ties. I'd almost rather not knowing than knowing he really does want to stop any involvement with me. I guess that means my mindset isn't where it should be. I do love him unconditionally and if he needs to leave, then I'd understand and respect it with no less love for him. I'd wish him nothing but happiness. But it would still be so incredibly upsetting to me.

So any thoughts, insights, advice, would be hugely appreciated!!