I don't know who am i but i can explain in one sentence

"Soul of Girl in the body of boy"

I always like straight guys.Since childhood i have some sort of attraction in me that makes straight guys attracted to me. i understand it's my  aura from my woman soul deep inside  which affects 
them.

Same happened  with my ex, we had 4 years of relationship and then he migrated to australia last year by leaving 
all things behind as he originally had thought of a straight guy i-e we cannot live together forever.
   i was so devastated . But before reltionship with my ex, i liked a guy who lived near to my house. We happened to  pass by each other  in market or street having eye contact .I judged  he was also attracted to me and after breakup with my ex i felt he is the  one who could deviate my attention from my ex. 

long story short 

Somehow i got his number and contacted.He came to see  and we had  first formal interaction, it was in May last year .After that we used to chat on whatsapp and then we decided to meet. he came daily to my home and we spent good time.He has lot of girls (FWB). 
i was getting so close to him as i already liked him so did he. He expressed that he likes me .one night i went to him when he called me because he was not feeling well .so he asked me to stay as he was alone that night. we had romance and he was totally drawn to me. we didn't do any sex thing. In the morning he blamed me for everything that i am gay and i am seducing him to become gay .he insulted, degraded and everything he could do  he did.The biggest argument was, "we are of same gender" and its a sin and he was so much confused that how can he be attracted to a boy while he always liked girls.
He said           "you dont have anything which i could be intrested in.Its not my fault what you are ,its matter of God and you, fight with  God who made you like this."  

these words broke me into pieces  ....

(it is the upbringing of society and mind set that doesn't accept this type of relationship.Usually this type of 
stubborn guys supress their feelings if its  going against society and values  ) 


 i was so hurt and i fought with him that he is the partner in crime if it is.But you know ladies men always will 
be men and he  refused all my replies to his allegations.
Then i moved on .Due to breakup with my  ex i was already aware of some "get over break up"  plans on internet but wasn't aware of LOA.I decided to know about it and i watched "The Secret" movie.It raised my viberations.
            it was his birthday on sep 1st last year,my friends asked me not to wish him so i didn't.Later in october 13 was my birthday and he wished me on facebook i was shocked then i texted him and he said you did nothing on my birthday atleast i have guts to wish you, i was so enjoying this.

 Later came to know about Veronica on you tube , contacted her and she sent her books

i raised my viberations so high and used veronica's challenge.It worked and he came after a week since i started 
veronica's challenge. he was so nice and spent whole night with me .hugged and kissed me slept with his head on my chest and in morning he left by saying that we proved that we dont have any sexual lust  and that he likes me. 
i was so happy like i got the  whole world. but after few days he again started ignoring me.He said he loves me but he couldn't manage to see ,talk and hangout with me because he didn't have time while he had time for other poeple in his life. I have still his voice message in which he say "I love you o my life"  .
Then i decided finally to move on, 15th of Jan was the last day when we met and i went to NC. I started LOA again but this time it 
didn't work because my viberations were at lowest level.
Banging head with internet again ,used personalised subliminals but nothing worked and he didn't contact me at
all.Time passed in searching ways to get him back and then  i came to know about Lanie.

On 12th of march i got meditations and PW book and started practising it once a day as i couldn't get time. after 
almost 10 days he texted me "Miss you"  that was what made my jaws open, whole night i couldn't sleep with joy .Omg it worked.I just replied him "Thanks" which i hope burnt him heheheh  becuase later i sent him a video in which an allegator eats a girl, he replied by saying that you should also be treated  like this ,when i asked him why he replied he doesn't know .and after that he is still silent .


In the mean while my ex is calling and texting and other  4 to 5 guys i like are acting like crazy for me. I know 
PW works but it is affecting others  more while my POI is so cold .  

I just want him to know that just go with your feelings, going with feelings 
doesn't make you gay. Don't label it or feel disgust for it. Just know that you have feeling for a boy.A boy has 
feelings for a boy and those feelings are true.



I am sorry for this long story but i need to know you guys about this so i can get your advices 
I believe i have to be more consistent in PW/BWD or increase the number of it as i am doing just one times a day 
at night bed time.
Anyways my viberations are high and i believe it is affecting him as well and finally he will break his barriers. 




Edit: 

Sorry i forgot to mention that  once i aksed him  do you miss me he replied

"i never miss a girl ,  missing a boy is impossible"

So friends PW  is hitting this  stuborn ass so strongly that he texted me  "Miss you"  in first 10 days of doing it    

Last edited by Wasi (4/14/2017 10:12 am)