Periodically, my employer offers training classes. We typically outsource and hire an actual teacher to come in to conduct our classes. When we were planning one of the classes, the teacher told us that the schedule wouldn't work for her and I was asked to be her sub. I was terrified for multiple reasons(I don't like public speaking, I'm not a teacher, I wasn't secure in the role). I did good the first time I subbed for her and the next time I was butchered in some of the student's feedback. I was mortified while reading the reviews but happy at the same time because I felt like that would confirm that I'd never be asked to sub for the teacher again. I even started to visualize her always being able to make it. LOL However, It didn't go like that.

I was asked to re-visit each class to assist. It reached a point where I complained and dreaded going each time. Finally,  I decided that if I were going to have to do this then I wanted to feel good about it.  I told myself that I was asked to assist because it was something about me that made the class better. I started to give my appearance more attention and care. I gave myself self talks about how I could and would do a great job. When I would have those negative thoughts creeping up to tell me "What is the point of you doing this?  It'll just have you behind at your day to day job and they can do it without you!"  I would tell myself that it was working out for the best and I would see benefits some day.  Well, for the first time - I'm going to receive a pay bonus for my efforts.  :-) 

Last edited by Avaelle (5/31/2017 8:15 pm)