Yes I can break down Lanie's routine. In the beginning after the break up when I first started Lanie's routine, naturally I had sleepless nights and that needy I miss him feeling. I started doing PW probably 3-4 nights before bed just so I could sleep. I ended up buying Lanie's package set, I think it was $69 for CTC, PW and some other meditations. Worth it!!! This helped me in the beginning because I really needed to calm down and her voice, it really puts you to sleep.

I also probably did pw when my heart ached, it could be 2-3x a day and skip 2 days then 2x a day and skip a day. .  There were days I missed him everyday so I just did it when ever I needed him.  Doing Pw made me feel good because I truly tricked my brain to think, that him speaking to me was in real time as if it were really happening. Now sometimes, I had my eyes open while I talked to him, this helped me feel that it was more real. I felt all the strong emotions of happiness when He said he was madly in love with me and that he couldn't live without me. There were times, during pw my mind would wonder so instead of bringing it back to him, I saw him in his room super depressed over me.  

Eventually the pain subsided as doing these pw viz, helped me feel good and I started telling myself whenever my heart ached, so and so is madly in love with me. Sometimes I would laugh because it got to the point, I just knew he was in love with me. That is how powerful your mind is. When you have convinced yourself of something, it will deliver it. I convinced myself he had regrets over losing me and that he was crzy in love with me. 

I did bwd a few times maybe 6 times total?.. I hate to say this because its embarrassing but there were times I took care of myself intimately and Did bwd with it. I know he felt these because when he started reaching out to me again, I did a bwd intimate session and he called me and we talked for 2.5 hours one night. These last few nights he has been calling, texting etc and shown interest. Since this post, he texts or calls everyday. Not sure how long this will last, but as my heart is not hurting anymore, my heart doesn't look forward to his calls or expect it. If he calls great, if not, there is no wanting or yearning. I do like that he does because I still care for him. He also admitted he was intensely depress, he just didn't say over me.

My pw  sessions went from 2-3 times a day on days I missed him to eventually 2-3 x a week and then to just whenever i ached over him but again, because I was doing them, I started getting attached eventually later as well. Because when I was getting attached I would do more. Eventually I had to force myself to detach and do less so I could live my life without being obsesed over him. But it wasn't until the embarrassing things he said about me to my friend that I needed to cut feelings for him with the CTC, I used Lanie's recordings both time and it felt good letting all that hurt and baggage go.

Again, once I did the ctc, if I felt hurt or pain over him. I would remind myself that he wasn't worthy of me and I would be open to better men for me out there. Although I was forcing myself to be over him, I still kept telling myself everytime I thought of him, that he was madly in love with me and crazy about me. Once I started talking to other guys who were great that also helped with getting over him. When I truly was not yearning for him was when he started reaching out. 

ps one more thing, I know this is personal. He as a man, wanted to sleep with me. I am still attracted to him and wanted to but I held my ground and wouldnt. I told him, I dont sleep with anyone who isn't my partner. Another thing too, I also told him, I would never go back to him and that I had made up my mind and there was no changing it. I think these two things also made him a little crazy and that could also contribute to him calling and or texting everyday. 

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Ok I can help you a little bit on that on the emotion part. So in the beginning it might be hard for you to visualize doing pw and feeling everything. What I would do is I would pull up a pic of him I really liked and talk to it like I was talking to him. Then I pretended that he was talking to me back. Now when you pull up pics and look at his pics, you will feel that hurt. that's ok take that hurt and even though you're hurting, hear him say, babe Im sorry, I love you so much, dont cry. Let yourself cry if you need to. Even if youre feeling hurt, let that hurt out and hear him say all the things you wanted him to say. I would often do this if I felt no emotion, and I would close my eyes after i look at his pic, see him in my mind with the light between our 3rd eye and hear him say, Will you marry me? and all the things He would never say in real life as he never expressed his emotions to me. But nevertheless he will feel these emotions whether he tells you or not by the way he acts.

Soon after doing this, i got used to bringing up emotions of love or hurt or whatever and i could close my eyes and do pw. For me the meditation helps with her recording bc it does relax you. But try to use the hurt to fuel you to feel something and then have him apologize while you feel this hurt, then feel the hurt subsiding bc in real life if he was apologizing and saying he wants to marry you, Wouldn't you be excited??! yeah get there, truly feel that when you imagine him saying this, he is really there with you. His spirit feels you so when you are doing this, he feels you too. 

Another thing on him, He wants to keep you around because having you as a friend and knowing you want him, makes him feel secure. NOO! Do not let him feel secure with you. While doing pw on him, act as if you don't really need him. That means taking a lot longer to text back or don't even text back. I know  your'e not supposed to play games but the truth is, even if he feels strongly for you, if he thinks you are a backup, he will go out and have his fun knowing your're sitting around waiting.  Try to have fun without him and when you talk to him, act like your life is going great and you've never been happier, blah blah. He will wonder that you are moving on and you kinda want to act like you are. Don't bring up how he feels about you and all that stuff. Don't do it. The minute they think you want them, it's kinda hard to break through with them on pw. Let him come to you, in the mean time, do pw, and act like you don't even need him and ghost him every now and then. It will make him mad and that's the point, right now your'e tepid water for him. Make him want you by being scarce, and then with pw.. He is going to yearn for you because now he is thinking about you and your'e moving on and uninterested. I can't wait to hear your success down the road. I know it is hard because you love him, but it's better that right now you temporarily don't have him then to lose him forever just being his security blanket. 

On you wondering if he has any feelings for you at all.  The truth is he is probably still in love with you because no man would want his ex gf around as  friend unless he still had some kind of feelings for her. He needs to have you around as a friend because he needs you to fill his emptiness. He will never admit that to you. There were times, I felt my ex moved on as we went through months of no contact. However, when I would feel that he had moved on or didn't care about me anymore, I would do Lanie's pw and as I imagined him saying these wonderful things to me, I started feeing better and soon I was lying to myself or telling myself, he is crazy obsessed with me. I kept telling myself this and even though everything was screaming, no he doesn't care about you, he doesn't miss you, I would change how I felt. So I changed the feeling of anxiety of, he is dating someone, or he has moved on to convincing myself, even though it was lying to myself at first it didn't feel natural, but with pw, I soon felt happiness hearing him say those words to me. I felt so happy I would cry during pw hearing him propose to me. And soon I was able to convince myself to the point that the hurt wasn't there anymore. Because the truth is, if you felt that he was madly in love with you, you would not feel hurt. And that is what I had to do, lie to myself until I started believing that he was in love with me and needed me back etc, only when I felt that way the hurt wasn't there. However, I didn't see results until I was so hurt by him meeting my friend online that I was angry and wanted to be done with him. Once I did the ctc method and decided to move on. I guess all the pw sessions came crashing down on him or something because suddenly he came back, needing me, wanting me and literally begging to get me to admit that at some point, I had love him at least once. Believe me, no man wants to be friends with any woman unless he thought he could get something from her, whether its sex or whatever, but even if its sex, that means he is still attracted to you. And even if he 1% attracted to you, you can and will get him back. Keep doing the pw and truly believe this will work for you, honestly, believe he is feeling this as you are doing the pw to him because he does feel it. Also one key note, if you truly want marriage, then let some of your pw be where he is in his wedding attire and you're looking at him and you hear him say, I do!! feel that intense happiness of love when your man is saying this to you on your wedding day. This will also put those pictures in his mind as well. Trust me, my ex started talking about us being soulmates and all.. Which he is not the type to even talk like that.

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