He's alive. I know my prayer was answered and he'll be alright.

emmiline wrote:

Justaspeckintheuniverse, that is such a powerful story!
Do you still use the technique onhim or have you moved on?

Yes. I think it will either bring him back or someone better. I'm unsure at this point. I'm a bit confused about the different messages I've gotten thus far. In one dream a feathered woman told me things will be alright. Just be his friend and be patient. I guess I need to move on and see what happens while sending messages of love.

Aphrodite11 wrote:

mrstkg wrote:

That's got to hurt. I know you don't want to hear it right now, but you're free at least. Free to be pursued by a better match. You'll look back and be like "thank God". But, I'm a little confused "he said his marriage is just an adjustment". Did he tell you he was getting married?

I think you are unaware of my story.
I will try to repeat. It can be exhausting to repeat.
We were friends with benefits. He started developing feelings for me. He couldn't be with other girls. I started having feelings for him gradually. This was unusual for me as I do not develop serious feelings easily. He wanted to marry me.
Our relationship started in September 2015. I have ADHD and so does my brother. We were diagnosed in 2015. All these years I didn't even know something like that existed. He knew about this before entering the relationship. It was a long distance relationship. He came back in town in the end of March and his behaviour started changing. He was distant. He didn't meet me enough. And I am not a person who demands to meet everyday. He was avoiding me a lot. I didn't realize he was avoiding me. Then he went back to the city where he is posted (he is a soldier). And few days after that....... BOOM !!!!!! He broke up with me !!!!!!!!! On the phone !!!!!!! And he fell asleep after he broke up and I was crying and weeping !!!!!!!!!!
My mom spoke to him two days later, he blamed me for everything !!!!!!!!!! He blamed me saying that I procrastinate, that I don't sleep in time and don't wake up everyday in time, that I do not carry out tasks in time, etc!!!!!! Mind me these are all symptoms of my illness !!!!!!!!!! I suffer from insomnia, nearly no focus, anger outbursts, and a whole list of symptoms add to it the abuse I suffered during my entire childhood !!!!!!! My mom even tried to explain very politely that it is due to illness and that finally I am receiving good treatment !!!!!!! He denied all that !!!!!! I finally started reaching office in time, sleeping in time, waking up fresh, etc and he said I was faking all that !!!!!!!!! 
Then few days later his best friend told me that he had called her up and told her that his engagement has been fixed (arrange marriage we are from shit place called India). He started posting all the lovey dovey stuff. After the break up he had told me that whichever girl he is going to marry it will just be an adjustment !!!!!!! This is an adjustment !!!!!!!!!! All this lovey dovey nonsense !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I spoke to him on 17th August 2015 about this and he said "It's not in the sense in which you are taking it". That's the last time we spoke. And really !!!!!! It's not in the sense in which I am taking it !!!!! Then what sense is it !!!!!!!!! Who the fuck posts all such things when you don't truly feel something for another person !!!!!!!!!! I know I would never post those things if I didn't truly love a person !!!!!!!!! And who the fuck falls in love so quickly after ending a relationship !!!!!!!!
Now that I see back, few days ago he did post a few things which make me doubt if he knew her before he broke up with me !!!!! But I am unsure and I have no way of knowing !!!!!!!
I just don't know what happened !!!!!!!!!! His best friend told me that he said about me "She is a nice girl, I wanted to be with her, but my....." and he stopped. She asked him what but he didn't finish the sentence. I don't know how much truth is there in it. I remember him posting few days after the break up "If someone asks you why whatever happened happened? Then say that whoever you wabted wasn't in your destiny and whoever you got was approved by God". He is an atheist and he posted this !!!!!!
All this is so confusing!!!!!!!!!
He looks so happy with her !!!!! They look as if they know each other since long, as if they are friends too !!!!!!!!
I want to throw up !!!!!!!!!!!! Oh God !!!!! What have I gotten myself into !!!!!!!!!! All my fault !!!!! I am the piece of shit here !!!!!!!!!! My fault !!!!!!!!!!!

 

Couples often like putting on a fake front for show. It doesn't mean they are really happy. The more they try to shove in everyone's faces how "happy" they are the less likely it is so.

aligemini wrote:

Aphrodite11. Oh my love, as you well know from our conversations I have been where you are now only 3 months ago. It is so hurtful. You need to vent your anger first, especially when this has arisen 'out of the blue'. Get rid of as much negativity as you can out of your system. He has blamed you since you are an 'easy target', i.e. blame her because this is not my fault, it is hers because..........Excuses excuses. Just as long as no one blames him!!! Yes I have been there too.

When you have emerged from some of the anger and negativity, then maybe you can start to think about working on your inner state. Shifting some of the negativity is a great starting point.

Trust me, it was just too quick (the wedding). Marry in haste and repent at leisure. He will regret it. The 'honeymoon' period will never last. And yes...... I know that because my ex cannot stay away from me for long, even though he has been told to stay away. Take care my love

You ex married after 4 months of the break up. That was way too soon and I know he is repenting. I know he will be crawling back to you. You know he can't stay away from you even if he has been told to because you have the proof of it. He tried to gain money from your property and that shows that he still wants you. His attention is on you even if it's negative.
I have no such proof. Also, he married after 7 months of the break up. Yours married after 4 months. Yours was too quick. 7 months is really a haste?  Plus nobody is telling him to not contact me. Yet he hasn't reached out.
At least there are people to tell you what he is thinking, etc. And his actions show he can't let you go. I have no such way of knowing anything.

I admit I want him to regret a lot. But wanting such thing isn't good. Look what kind of person I have become!!!! I want someone to regret !!!!! I need to get a fucking grip on myself !!!!!!! This isn't me !!!!! I turned myself into this!!!!

I don't know how did you stay so calm when your ex got married only after 4 months!!!!! You are so tough !!!!!! I want to have that strength and patience too. 

What I am unable to wrap my head around is, how on earth can someone just go ahead and "marry" someone else so easily after leaving one person they were so attached to. You can have someone temporarily but marrying someone? How the fuck do people do this? To top it all claiming love for each other so fucking much in such extreme manner? Boasting about it so much !!!!!! 

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Okay I am likely to be scolded for this. I did a PW session today. This morning.
And I heard him say "I feel impotent without you!!!"
And this time when I did the session, I felt a lot of tingling in my hands and legs but I also felt it in ky lips and around my lips!!!!!! I never felt it in the lips area !!!!! I don't know why I felt it there !!!!!
Also the sensation in my hands was really very strong this time !!!!! I wasn't focused properly and yet I felt so much !!!!!
In fact after I finished the session I got up and I started doing other things and i could still feel it!!!! My hands were actually feeling somewhat stiff !!!!!! I don't know if I felt this because I hadn't had the breakfast or because I connected !!!!! I was slightly dizzy as well. But I started feeling all these sensations in hands and lips and feet only after I started the session!!!!