Hi,

I've been in NC for 6 months. And a few days ago my fear materialized. I was actually ready to reach out to him, but I looked up a girl he became friends with 2 months ago and saw picture of them at a christmas lunch together. Right after that I deactivated my fb and delete my snapchat. But yesterday I redownloaded snapchat and logged in... To see what I feared. He rarely upload stories. But he posted a picture with her with the caption "Bae".

I am in the process of trying to get myself back and I also feel like I deserve to be treated much better. However.. I still want him. And I know he is the one. We're in diff continent and didnt spend a lot of time physically together but we spent an entire 6-7 months talking before that.

However... I feel weak. Throught this 6 months of NC i have been feeling good more than bad.. Yet the fear materialize before anything good. I would appreciate any guidance and success stories despite the 3rd party and distance and NC...

Ps. I think she's gay. But what is going in with them shouldnt matter.... But to me it still does. And i'm working on changing that.

Thank you...