....actually a lot of money.  Feeling good about it but for one thing.  Its manifesting around me and I am receiving benefit from it, but its going directly to others so I am lacking some power regarding its use.   The others are family members so if its a kid, and I don't have to help pay tuition, I consider it my wealth as well.  The rest is mostly going to hubby, but I have a lot of shared bills, so they will be getting paid. And that frees up my money for me.  Anyway the fact that the almost exact dollar amounts I requested to manifest are going to others is one thing I need to explore.  

No luck with men yet....attracted another nice young man, but I kinda screwed it up...half on purpose as he is younger and has kids and stuff about which I don't want to be bothered.

But I am seeing this all as a positive shift that needs tweaking.

Hope you all are happy prosperous and boinking like crazy.

Super happy for you.  I had my "I don't care" moment recently.  I don't think I've moved into self love but I know I've had a few epiphanies.  Did I spell that correctly? 

One amazing thing happened concerning my apartment.  I've been wanting to move on.   I feel I'm stagnating, but I was so afraid I wouldn't be able to find another apartment at this price (can you hear the scarcity and lack?) So I gave notice, decided something better would come along, and generally got into a mind set in which I could take or leave my place.   My landlady came back and offered to take 150.00 a month off my rent.  Now I'm going to save some money and move when I do find a better place.   

Its the same thing with my guy...he's gone.  Oh well.   YAY.  I just don't care.  I am not super happy with men presently, but again, at least I am in a much more neutral place.

PS   I am kinda disappointed, none of the PW techniques worked for me....not turning heads in stores or picking up other men.  I thought it was a fun thing to do and I had fun trying. But after so many failures?  It has lost its appeal.  I did come back to share the "I don't care" story....because it brought me to a pretty nice place.  Trying to relax about everything else in life...just not care too much.

Agreed.  Some of my best "luck" has occurred after a good cry.  I tend to berate myself for being negative, but if I totally lose control of my emotions...yell, cry....something good always happens.  

I really need to think out loud.  I stopped in here last spring.  got a single response from my POI, which as it turned out,  I misinterpreted as kindly. It was not.   It was snarky.  So ends that.  I am ok trying to give up at this point, but it really did take until this point. 

Here is my current mind set.  
My busy season is in the summer. I am an estate gardener and I mostly enjoy the work and my customers.   I have lots of time off in winter.  I spend this time mostly alone and tend to get depressed.  I am not qualified for, nor do I live in an area that offers lots of opportunities for any sort of really interesting work....think walmart, lowes, food service and warehouse.  I've done all them and don't wish to go back to them, seasonally or otherwise.  I will because I have to, but honestly....the time just drags at some of these places.

So last winter, out of loneliness and boredom,  I started hiking with another landscaper....known him for years.  Can't say I really like him, but he took my mind off of my POI.  I am now having flashbacks of the time I spent with him and am feeling like I wasted all winter. He got pretty pushy recently as I believe he expects me to spend more time with him this year. I do not want to repeat last winter for anything. I have been really snapping about this...very angry at me and at him.  On the bright side, it was exercise

The volunteer groups I work with are making demands I'd rather not do either.  I do not need to find a man, but I need to find my tribe, and these people just aren't it.

I want to quit drinking alcohol....so no bars for entertainment.

I swear I am not afraid to take an opportunity if it presents itself, but I am out of ideas as to where to look anymore.  I have tried looking for jobs out of my area, but get rejected frequently...again....not the greatest job history and many of the less qualified job types require that you live locally.  I can't afford to move til I have the job

I agree.  I am devastated that mine still hasn't connected.  I am old enough to know better.  But nope...No texting.  No matter how well intentioned.  Thanks for the reminder.